Good
afternoon everyone, it is now Monday afternoon for me, I had a
somewhat busy weekend. Friday was Dawson's end of year presentation
and I as always went thankfully it was held in the morning and I was
able to go and do food shopping afterwards and on Saturday I went and
did other shopping and paid my layby's and such.
On
Thursday just pasted I went to the appointment with the specialist
over at the hospital and got no bloody answers, it is too soon to
tell what is really causing the tremor although the doctor has
prescribed medication that may help control it this I will pick up
this afternoon or tomorrow morning. The chemist I see didn't stock it
and had to order it in so that is why I am late getting it and
starting it.
This
morning I had to go and have three teeth filled cost us $897 for
three fillings and I still need two more done next week. I don't
handle seeing the dentist well, for many years now I find after the
stuff they inject to numb you up wears off I start to feel unwell and
get a headache and don't feel like doing much.
Over
the weekend Natasha started to move a lot of her stuff in her bed is
here now but the fridge, washing machine a lounge and some other
stuff is still at her place her dad will move the fridge tomorrow
along with the washing machine. She isn't keeping the washing machine
she is just going to move it out of her house and leave it on the
side of the road someone will claim it, her fridge is coming here
though.
Seems
I will not be having Blain here this week, since his dad and Kelli
found out that I let him use his Xbox while grounded, so he is going
to Jessica's place. Yesterday I was feeling betrayed this was because
I felt that Kelli shouldn't had been snooping around the bedroom and
she could had said something to me instead of telling his dad, also I
was accused of encouraging Blain to lie to his dad and yeah I get
that it seemed that way. I did tell Blain not to volunteer the
information about using the Xbox, I did say don't lie if asked but if
not asked don't say anything.
Also
I heard from Jessica that I would not be having Blain not from Jono
or Kelli or even Natasha but Jessica, Jessica went on and on about
how I can't be trusted to discipline the child and how I let him do
stuff he wasn't allowed to do. I have always been soft when it comes
to discipline this is not new, also Kelli told me that I am not to
ask for her help again I assume she means with Blain so I won't.
So
yesterday I was in a right mood, I snapped at Jessica, I snapped at
Tim and I felt like I had been punched in the gut, not that I have
ever been punched in the gut so really don't know how that feels but
you get my meaning. Kelli said she doesn't know if Jono will forgive
me but you know what if he does he does if he doesn't he doesn't, I
am not going to tie myself up in knots stressing over it, I can't
change what has happened. It is what it is, was I wrong yeah I was,
this I know.
Sometimes
we do things we shouldn't do, but we can't go back and change
anything and what's the point in holding grudges and stressing over
stuff, Jessica said yesterday that I hold grudges, who the hell is
she thinking of, being pissed off for an hour or so isn't holding a
grudge, it's being pissed off for a bit that is all, by the afternoon
I was over it and had moved on.