Thursday 30 June 2011


Do you smile very often?

I do I like to smile I have always liked to smile, I remember when I was in school I would smile as a way of not letting the bullies bother me yes I was called names and I would just smile and think to myself what is your problem............I can remember hearing a couple of other girls talking about me and they where saying "does anything every upset her she is always smiling and happy". The thing was that I wasn't always happy in fact often I was feeling numb and yes sad but I was not going to let that lot see how sad and unhappy I was.

Even now I will smile and laugh no matter how sad I am feeling as when I do show my family that I am not very happy they will at times act like they do not care, so I wonder why bother showing the sad side of me.........being happy and upbeat has become a habit for me.....................

Now do not get me wrong most of the time I am truely happy and smiling does come naturally for me and I do for the most part love my life and my family..............I do think smiling makes things not seem so bad and if you smile you will make others smile and pass on good vibes.

Tuesday 28 June 2011

Q & A in Pj's

Ever have a day when you think why should I get dressed……………………….I’m not going anywhere I have no plans to see anyone so what is the point……….

Well I am having one of those days today which is why I am still in my sleep pants also known as Pj bottoms home alone although not for long as Jess and Leo have only gone to see the movie Cars 2 but I will take whatever I can get…………

So for today’s post I thought we would have some more Q & A.

1. How and why did you first start blogging? And how long have you been blogging?

I started because my dad had a blog and it looked like something I would like so started my own blog that was years ago can’t remember how long exactly.

2. Tell me about your perfect mate – if you could invent him/her?

I married my perfect/soul mate we are often on the same wave link he will come home from work and say to me I was think such and such and I would say I was thinking the same thing today and that happens a lot.

3. Do you wear fake eyelashes? Do you want to? Do you use glue or self-stick ones? Do you like how they look?

Nope don’t wear them have no desire to wear them either.

4. Let’s say money was no object and neither was time off to recover – are you an advocate of plastic surgery after weight loss?

Yes sometimes you need to remove the loose skin and tighten bits up.

Monday 27 June 2011

House or Home

Why is it when I can sleep in or at lease do not have to get up very early I wake up early and cannot go back to sleep and end up getting out of bed....................such as today I have been out of bed since 7am.

When my precious first born turned up with Sydney as it is Monday and she has to work so I have to watch Syd for her, anyway I sounded a bit croaky and she is like are you sick again mum in that tone that implies I am just feeling sick to annoy her or that in some way I will be unable to take care of Sydney. I would have to really really sick before I would tell her I was unable to care for my grandchild, so naturally Sydney is here and she loves being here playing with Leo.

I may not know how to do much but I do know how to care for a child and house ok my house may not be as clean and tidy as some of my children would like………..hell none of my children think I keep a clean house they all like to complain about the house. They have gone as far as saying this house is a dump and they hate it here…………………

Ok maybe the house is not as clean as it could be since I do let Leo play with his toys all over the house true you often cannot walk down the hall without stepping over toys, but I do sweep out every day and I do the laundry at least twice a week and the dishwasher goes on daily and I do not like dirty dishes on the sink they have to go into the dishwasher and I always clean the kitchen after a meal has been cooked. Would I like the house to be neater and if you like cleaner then yes I would but it is hard to keep it neat and tidy when you have young children running around playing with toys……….I do not want my grandchildren to feel like they cannot play with their toys…….

I had an aunt and uncle whose house was like that you were not allowed to bring out more the 2 toys at a time and they had to go back away as soon as you were finished with them, there house did not have a lived in feeling about it, unlike my parents’ house which did and still does. I think that is why I am the way I am and why I do not like it when people just drop in as I feel they are looking at my house thinking what a mess……………that said to be honest most of the time I do think if you do not like my house don’t come here…………………………

I guess the point I am making here is that I am 48 years old and as such old enough to know what I am doing even if what I am doing is not done the way you would like.

Saturday 25 June 2011

No Rest For The Wicked or Me..............

What a few days I have had feel like I have not had more then 5 minutes to myself uninterupted, been doing the laundry and other housework while trying to read blogs and of course it is me who has been taking Leo to day care and picking him up in the afternoon. Also went with mum to see my nan as per usual and then on Thursday went to help mum with her monthy shop which takes a while as we spend a lot of time talking.

The Fridays are my shopping days so and I am gone from 8am till around 2pm I usually try to spend a couple of hours blogging but yesterday when I get home I can not get online, now my internet does have a habit of dropping out so nothing new there. While I am trying to get the internet to work I try to check and see if there are messages on 101, for those who have no idea what that is it's like message bank on my home phone but it is free anyway I go to do that and I have no dial the phone is not working and if the phone is not working then I have no internet.............bugga

I ring my mum and get her to ring and report my not working phone around 2 hours later my house phone rings it's Telstra telling me my phone is now working and will I check that I can ring out and get online, which I do and all good so now we have a happy Jo-Anne. I decide to check me emails and then do some blogging but alas by the time I check me emails hubby is home from work and it is time for me to go and get Leo but hubby shocks me when he said he would go and get Leo while I start tea.
So no blogging till after tea but by the time I cook tea the eat tea and clean up the kitchen but by then I am so tired I just want to sit and watch today if I get interupted ever half hour I will be pissed off.
Ok I started this two yes two hours ago and had to stop to take Jessica's car back to the car yard as the back drivers side door is not locking. Then I had to get clothes off the line and then peg more on the line then unpack the dishwasher and then of course repack stuff in it and of course I had to put the clean clothes away and I just had to stop typing while I peel spuds to make home made chips for Jessica and at some point today I will have to tidy up and sweep out, I don't have a vaccum cleaner which is ok I don't mind useing the broom I think it does a better job too.

I also just had to pop out to the shops to buy more spuds and some snags for tea and when I told Jes that I wanted to not to be interupted for awhile so I can do some blogging she just gave me a look.....................Oh well I am here now and after hitting publish I will be reading some blogs and leaving my comments you all look forward to reading and if you do not look forward to reading my comments please do not tell me so it will make me sad.............:(

Tuesday 21 June 2011

A postage Stamp

A wonderful thing is a postage stamp

when you come to reason and think

of the joy and tears it carries around

with all its paper and ink

It has smashed a nation before today

and shattered the throne of a king

It has carried a lock of maiden's hair

and brought her a wedding ring

It has found the black sheep far away

that strayed from the narrow track

and broke his dear old mother's heart

but the stamp has brought him back

It has linked up commerce around the earth

and across the seven seas

T'will bring the nations together yet

and settle the world at ease

Monday 20 June 2011

A Horrible day followed by a worse night

Yesterday Tim went over to Kathy's to do some more work on her back yard Jessica came with us but Natasha didn't she said she other stuff to do, this resulted in a argument between Natasha and Tim. Tim said he had asked other members of my family to help but I know he only has my parents and Sandra and David's phone numbers so he may have asked them I have no idea whether he did or not anyway they didn't turn up to help which pissed him off.

The next thing to piss him off was that he asked me to order pizza for lunch which I did with him standing next to me, I clearly told him I was getting it from Pizza Hut but after I had gone a picked it up he goes off that he doesn't like Pizza Hut and only ate 2 slices....

We only stayed at Kathy's place a couple of hours and by the time we left Kathy was in a mood not sure why I think it was because she was tired of having so many people around her. Jessica was also in a mood she was fed up with listening to Kathy bitch about stuff so I pack up the left over pizza and we come home..........On the way home Tim asked me to stop so he could get oil for Jessica's new car which she gets this afternoon, after getting the oil he starts to tell Jessica how much the stuff cost that he will use to service the new car. However he was taking so long to get to his point she got the shits with him and snapped at him making his mood worse.

We get home and I decided to have a port and coke to help me destress but then he comes and asks me to order him a pizza from Domino's which I did but then when I asked him for the money to pay for it he got annoyed with me but he still came with me to pick it up and yes he paid for it as I have no money.............while going to get his pizza he went on and on and on about how much he hates Pizza Hut and I ended up snapping at him that I hate Domino's just as much but I rarely say anything and just get what he wants.

Jump forward a couple of hours he has changed the battery in Jessica's car taking the new one out and replacing it with the old one, so that when I jump in the car to go to the shops I forget that he has done that and the car dies on me and I ended up stuck down to the street for a while. We did a lot of ringing around to try and find someone to come and give me a jump start, which I ended up not needing as the car ended starting again. I ring Tim and tell him the car has started and I am heading home and for him to ring and tell people that I no longer needed help, he didn't and Kathy turned up to help me and got pissed off because no one rang her to tell he she was no longer needed. Tim blamed me for this.

Jump forward another hour or so and it is 6.30pm and I want to relax and watch a particular show on telly which Tim doesn't like he thinks it's boring and went on and on about not likeing it and wanting to watch something else I tell him NO I want to watch my show he then askes me for my sisters phone number and I tell him I do not have it in my phone and I do not want to search for it..............he searches and finds it not hard to do I have a list of phone numbers near the phone.

He then rings my sister Jeannie and her boyfriend Peter answers now he doesn't like Peter says he doesn't like the way Peter treats Jeannie my opinon is it is Jeannie's life and if she is happy with Peter and want him in her life it is nothing to do with us. Still he abuses Peter threating to shoot him (we don't have a gun) and to beat him up and stab him etc etc..............this upsets Jeannie and she rings our mum crying. Peter hangs up on Tim and then Tim rings my brother telling him Peter is coming here to bash him...........

David comes over here and talks to Tim and calms him down mum also speaks to Tim which also helped calm him down..........although when David got here Tim was back on the phone to Peter again abusing him again.

His behaviour made Jessica leave with Leo for the night and the girls wanted me to leave also but I wouldn't.............after a while Tim was quite just sitting in his arm chair saying nothing much. I left him there while I went to bed and when I get to bed I find that my C Pap machine isn't working so all in all I had a rotten night last night followed by a terriable nights sleep.....

Today Tim only remembers bits and pieces of what happen last night and said he feels ashamed and embarrest by his behaviour...........................

Yes he was drunk he had been drinking since around 11am

Sunday 19 June 2011

A dozen questions and answers

1.} What must you do before you go to bed at night?

Go to the toilet

3.} Before going on vacation what must you do?

Check the house in all locked up

4.} What is one thing you must do every day?

Check my emails and blogs or and eat.

5.} Is there something you do that must be done in a particular order?

Peg my clothes on the line have to start with the smallest items and work out to the largest.

6.} How many times have you been a bridesmaid/maid of honor?


7.} You just won your dream vacation, all expenses paid. Where are you going?

Damn there are so many places I want to go to but it would include a cruise.

8.} What is your favorite outdoor activity?


9.} As a child, what did you want to “be when you grew up”? Did you end up there?

To be a full time mother and that is what I am so yeah I got there.

10.} what’s for dinner tonight?

Left over pizza

11.} if someone stopped by your house unannounced on a typical Saturday night, what would they find you doing?

Watching Television

12.} what do you do to relax?

Blog and pen paling or sometimes I walk

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