Thursday 29 October 2020

Poem Day



Sylvia PlathBy  More Sylvia Plath

I am silver and exact. I have no preconceptions.
Whatever I see I swallow immediately
Just as it is, unmisted by love or dislike.
I am not cruel, only truthful,
The eye of a little god, four-cornered.
Most of the time I meditate on the opposite wall.
It is pink, with speckles. I have looked at it so long
I think it is part of my heart. But it flickers.
Faces and darkness separate us over and over.

Now I am a lake. A woman bends over me,
Searching my reaches for what she really is.
Then she turns to those liars, the candles or the moon.
I see her back, and reflect it faithfully.
She rewards me with tears and an agitation of hands.
I am important to her. She comes and goes.
Each morning it is her face that replaces the darkness.
In me she has drowned a young girl, and in me an old woman
Rises toward her day after day, like a terrible fish.


Wednesday 28 October 2020

Birthday Wishes


Good afternoon, yesterday I had a doctor's appointment and for some reason I never got around to doing a post and today I am restless and not with it but I am writing this.

On the 28th October 1969 my little sister Susan Denise was born she is the third child with two older sisters and two younger siblings.

Sue is very much like me in many ways and as different as can be in others.

Sue has been married twice divorced once ad widowed the second time around. She has 4 children and 7 grandchildren who she loves and adores naturally.

I am hoping she has a great day and feels the love from her family as well as their appreciation.

Monday 26 October 2020

Facts again


The start of a new week, a cold and wet start at that being Monday it is fact day, so here we go.

Wilma Flintstone's maiden name was Slaghoopal, and Betty Rubble's was Betty Jean McBricker

111,111,111 x 111,111,111 = 12,345,678,987,654,321

In 1990 the Mars chocolate company decided to change the Marathon bar's name to “Snickers”, the company didn't want to lose the bar's British Fans, so for 18 months the wrapper was made with both names. When Marathon was dropped from the name the bar went from No9 to No3 on the UK”s best selling chocolate bar list. Kit Kat was No1

The melting point of cocoa butter is just below the human body temperature, which is why chocolate literally melts in your mouth.

John Rolfe named Pocahontas the Native American princess in 1613

Sunday 25 October 2020

My week that was

 A new day here, very overcast which is why I slept in till 7.45, found Tim already up and dressed for work.

Tasha arrived 10 minutes later to get her washing and make me breakfast and of course help me dress.

Kelli and her children called in when they dropped off Blain.

Been a quiet day only saw Leo once as his friend Kajta was visiting

Back to a normal wake up time this morning, Tim was up and ready for work. Tasha arrived 5 minutes later to get me ready for the day.

I rang Leo at 7.30 he wasn't ready to wake up and said could I ring back in 10 minutes, which I did. We left on time though so all good.

Leo's early day he gets out at 1.50pm and will be home between 2 and 2.30, so I will be there waiting for him from 2pm.

He arrived at 2.15pm.

Started raining at 2.25, so I was lucky Leo arrived when he did.

Up at 6.10 just before the alarm went off.

Tasha managed to .

knock over a full glass of milk all over the bench and floor.

I was in the middle of getting changed so had to pull on a top and go help clean it up. I will have to wash the floor today

Managed to take Leo up and see him off before it pissed down.

It has rained on and off all day but had stopped by the tine I had to go get Leo.

I woke when Tim was leaving for work but managed to stay in bed for another 20 minutes before getting up 10 minutes before the alarm went off.

Leo was here at 7.35 ready for school but of course despite me telling him over and over to brush his teeth he waited till we were walking out the door to go do it.

Tasha came down and gave me a shower so I am nice and clean.

Been a busy morning vacuumed out twice and washed the towels and ironed Tim's work shirt.

Very windy this afternoon, mum was telling me to that she needs some kind of chest Xray and it would cost her $280 of which she gets $240 straight back. She just has to find the money first.

Another early start to the day woke to pee and stayed awake, laying in bed till 6am when I got up.

Tasha arrived and helped me start the day as usual.

Tasha is upset she was hoping to get a job as a Transport Support Officer for the company Jess works for but has been told by Centrelink that she needs to jump through hoops before it can happen this can take 6-12 months. She is pissed off.

Decided to listen to music instead of TV while I worked at the computer and chill doing nothing.

Tim home by 2pm the first thing he did was complain about the music said it was too loud, so I turned it off.

Woke with the alarm after a restless night, woke at least 6 times each for 15-20 minutes before falling back asleep.

Leo spent last night here and has been up since 7am.

Tim home by 10am till 1pm, he has another spilt shift.

I was able to listen to music this afternoon, Leo said it was loud as he could hear it outside his bathroom window.

Jessica came at 5 to deal with me

Woke at 7am after a decent nights sleep, it was dark and raining which maybe why I slept so long. Tim got up when I was in the bathroom.

It is a sticky type of morning at 8.20 Kathy rang and said she wouldn't be over as Sydney-May has a temperature, I said then she needs to stay home and take care of her.

Been raining most of the day, my printer ran out of ink when I tried to print yesterday's diary entry. I mentioned it to Tim and he said did I want him to go there and then to buy ink.

I asked if he hadn't already ordered it but nope he hadn't and that flicked the switch and I got pissed as I asked him 2 months ago to order it and again a month later. He didn't get why I was pissed, he said it was because he has been too busy working to remember. I replied NO it was because I felt like if he did needed it he would had ordered it straight away. I told him that and walked outside to have a smoke. After which I was fine, as in over it.

Thursday 22 October 2020

Thursday Poem


True Love


Published: January 2015

When I say I love you, please believe it's true.
When I say forever, know I'll never leave you.
When I say goodbye, promise me you won't cry,
Because the day I'll be saying that will be the day I die.


Tuesday 20 October 2020

Indestructible Stuff

 Good afternoon, having a cold wet day here, started raining while I was waiting for Leo's driver to arrive.

It is indestructible stuff day and today's stuff is natural glue.

Humans use a lot of glue, it's good for mending stuff but we are just amateurs as our glue is nothing like as good as the natural super glue that some living things make.

Most animals move around but a few such barnacles and muscles stick to a surface and stay there. To do this they make a small amount of super strong glue to attach themselves to rocks, boats and walls.

Not only is it incredibly strong it is also waterproof and strong enough hold fast and passing feet.

Some of the strongest natural glues are made of water bacteria, which uses them to stick to surfaces in fast flowing water. Scientist have also found that asparagus beetles make mind-boggling strong glue to stick their eggs firmly onto asparagus plants.

Scientists are now copying the chemicals found in these natural glues and combining them to make the ultimate waterproof glue. It could be used to mend ships underwater. SSS

Monday 19 October 2020

More Facts


Hello Monday, how is everyone ?

I am well here doing nothing again. Since it is Monday it is fact day................

The liver is the largest internal organ.

On average an attack of the hiccups lasts for 5 minutes

Excavations from Egyptian tombs dating back t o 5,000 BC showed that the ancient Egyptian kids played with toy hedgehogs

About 42,000 tennis balls are used in the Wimbledon Championship

The cruise liner Queen Elizabeth 11, moves about 6 inches for every gallon of fuel it burns.

Sunday 18 October 2020

Just another week in my life


I woke around 6.15 but managed to lay in bed till 7am, when I got up I found Tasha in the kitchen preparing my breakfast. Tim helped me dress before he left for work.

Leo has been here since last night most kids would go home as soon as they woke up but not Leo.

A short chat to mum, she said Michelle & family cancelled and didn't visit her today.

Woke at 6am and got up before the alarm, opened the house and while having my morning wash Tasha arrived.

First day of term 4 of school

Been tired most of the day because I took a night time med in the morning silly me.

Managed to listen to music although there are songs I want to delete and add more.

Up with the alarm as usual, opened the house and was having a wash when Tasha arrived to help me get ready for the day.

After 30mins I was dripping in sweat again and it's not hot at all.

Tim home at 1.45 and he came home in a mood, he snapped at me when I asked for help so I told him to get stuffed. He later snapped at Tasha while sorting out her CTP.

His excuse, he works 6 days a week, I said she works 7 days a week caring for me, my point is he isn't alone.

Tasha looked at me at 3pm and said you look like a zombie as in being so tired I was dead on my feet.

I woke with the alarm, I was dreaming about Kelli other than that I remember nothing about the dream.

I feel not right, my head feels like it's too heavy for my body. It is also kinda foggy just not right.

Not a hot day either but I am of course sweating.

It's Sandy's birthday I sent her a text wishing her happy birthday.

Tim home around 2pm another early day and he is in a better mood today.

Tasha giving me a shower as I have an appointment with the podiatrist tomorrow.

Woke as Tim was leaving for work but dosed off again till the alarm went off.

The men to install the new ceiling fan arrived at 7.15, they left at 8.30ish it looks good just different.

Went to see the podiatrist that went well, I don't go back till January.

Received the ambo bill $466.16, I went online and filled out the exemption form as we Ambulance cover.

Leo spent last night here again, I got up 6.15am as usual.

David messaged and asked if I was going to see Dad, I said no, he said he would pick me up so I said I would see him then.

Very windy this morning and a few drops of rain if the weather stays like this things may change.

Jess helped me get dressed to go out. Except for my shoes that I thought I could on my own, which I did it only took 20 minutes to do.

I had lunch with them at mum's then Dave & Leigh drove me home. It was a struggle to change my clothes when I got home.

Mum still rang this afternoon, we chatted for 40 minutes.

A later start to the day it was 7.15 when I woke up, made myself food and Kathy arrived at 9 to give me a shower.

Jess working today, seen Leo for a bit but he went home to do whatever.

Had to ring the chemist to arrange for Leo's meds so Tasha could get them.

Tim installing Jess's air con today doing most on his own.

Had to call for Leo to help adjust the speed of the new fan as it was difficult to reach.

It is 3.30 and I am exhausted so think I want to just lay down and listen to my book.

Thursday 15 October 2020

Poem Day


Be The Best Of Whatever You Are

By  More Douglas Malloch

If you can't be a pine on the top of the hill,
  Be a scrub in the valley — but be
The best little scrub by the side of the rill;
  Be a bush if you can't be a tree.

If you can't be a bush be a bit of the grass,
  And some highway happier make;
If you can't be a muskie then just be a bass —
  But the liveliest bass in the lake!

We can't all be captains, we've got to be crew,
  There's something for all of us here,
There's big work to do, and there's lesser to do,
  And the task you must do is the near.

If you can't be a highway then just be a trail,
  If you can't be the sun be a star;
It isn't by size that you win or you fail —
  Be the best of whatever you are!


Tuesday 13 October 2020



Good afternoon all, well it's Tuesday so it's indestructible stuff day and today it's coral.

Coral isn't indestructible you are saying because the coral polyps themselves are not they are sensitive to pollution and changes in sea temperature and some are now endangered.

When we think of the biggest thing ever created by living creatures we think The Great Wall of China or the tallest skyscraper but you would be wrong, it's the squishy little coral polyp.

You probably know that coral reefs are amazing underwater habitat home of all kinds of fish, sharks, turtles and octopuses. But what is coral?

It is actually made by small creatures called Coral Polyps which are tiny sea anemones. They build a shared layer of shell coral and live in it together. As polyps die new ones build more layers on top of the coral.

Over thousands of years this creates large indestructible and unmovable coral islands and reefs such as the Great Barrier Reef. Some of its coral may be up to 600,000[ years old.

Monday 12 October 2020

Just some facts


Good morning all, how is every one, good and happy with life I hope well it is Monday and the first day of term 4 of school. Monday is also fact day so here we go....................

A Californian discovered the commercial potential of raisins quite by accident. In 1873 a freak hot spell withered the grapes on the vine. One enterprising San Francisco grocer advertised these shrivelled grapes as “Peruvian Delicacies” and the rest is history.

The honeybee kills more people world-wild than all the poisonous snakes put together.

New Year's Day used to be on the 25th March. It was changed to 1st January in 1600 in Scotland and in 1751 in England.

First made at the beginning of the 20th century, lollipops were named after a racehorse of the time,”lolly Pop”....

A hippopotamus can run faster than a human...........

Sunday 11 October 2020

Life at mine


When I woke this morning the bedroom clock said 7.15 but the phone said 8.15 bloody day light savings. Not that I mind day light savings, I just didn't expect it this morning.

When I asked Tasha if she could come and help me she was snippy because she thought Tim should have got up to and helped me.

Kathy & Summer came over around 1ish so Summer could play with Georgia (Jason Brown's daughter.

However, around 3ish they left because the girls started to be naughty throwing stuff at Leo.

Didn't talk to mum as I have a ear ache and headache.

Up with the alarm, the house was very dark until I opened the house up.

Checked Tim's roster it said he started at 6.12, this was done at 6.30. So I woke him to check and he said it was wrong he starts at 9am.

Been a hot day had to turn the air con at 1pm because of how hot it is.

Saw Kelli when she brought Blain home.

Mum was feeling sick all day so only spoke for a few minutes

Tasha coming to give me a shower

I woke at 5am but stayed in bed till 6am when I got up, I opened the house up and got dressed with Tasha's help.

Tim home by 10.30 he has a long silt shift

Tasha checked the P O Box for me and there was a bloody lot there, including gifts for Kelli & Freya

Mum was telling me that last night she wasn't good she was very restless, hot and cold and unable to settle. She said she was like dad was the night before he passed away. This was distressing for her.

A new day, as usual up with the alarm and dressed with Tasha's help as usual.

A nice day not hot nor cold, the lawn men did the front lawns.

I walked outside and stepped on something that cause me to twist my foot hurting my toes on my left foot.

Tim home at 4pm, just before I went to listen to my book.

Mum was a bit better today, told her I ordered a gift for Skyla she was pleased. Said I could take the money out of her account but I won't.

I was dreaming when my alarm went off waking me up. Going to be another hot day.

Tim home at 10am another spilt shift, he will leave around 1pm.

Leo has gone to Kelli's for the night. He took his laptop and bike with him.

I have decided to have a bath although I expect Tasha to not be happy about that she doesn't like baths.

Woke before t he alarm tried to stay in bed but couldn't had to pee so got up. Dressed with Tasha's help.

Not as hot today thankfully.

Been a busy day sorting out letters received and friendship books.

Mum was good but also a tad annoying as she wants the Christmas gift I ordered for her to give to Skyla she wanted me to take it over so she could give it to her this weekend. I tried to explain to her that it hasn't arrived yet and may not arrive for a few weeks.

Plus it is for Christmas.

Woke at 7.30am with a headache I felt like shit so after breakfast I went back to bed till Kathy arrived.

Kathy gave me a shower, her showers are good but she doesn't scrub me as much as Tasha does. That doesn't mean I don't like the shower, it just means it is different.

After Kathy and the girls left I went back to bed for 1.5hrs as I felt like shit.

After getting up at midday I felt better and more able to function.

Mum was good when I spoke to her.

Thursday 8 October 2020

Poem Day


A Broken Heart

©  More By Jenna

Published: March 2008

How do I mend a broken heart?
My entire world has fallen apart.
How do I find hope in a brand new day,
when the one I love has gone away?
My mind overflows with memories of you,
of all that we've shared, all that we knew.
I long for your touch and your warm embrace,
the look in your eyes, the smile on your face.
My dreams are filled with your soft gentle kiss.
I wake and cry for all that I miss.
How do I mend a broken heart,
when my one true love and I are apart?
My heart knows to love only you, it won't let go, what do I do?
Our moments together were precious and few,
but I cherished them all more than you knew.
I love you, my angel, and always will.
I loved you then and I love you still.



Wednesday 7 October 2020

My Mother's Words


Take this child just for a loan

I'll lend you for a little time

a child of mine, he said for you

to love while they live and mourn

when they die.

It may be six or seven weeks, months or years

Or twenty two or three or longer still.

Will you to I call them back take care of them for me,

They will bring their charms to gladden your heart and

should their stay be brief, you'll have their lovely memories.

As solace for your grief.

I cannot promise they will stay since all from earth return,

but there are lessons taught down there I want this child to learn

I've looked the wild world over in my search for teaches true and

from the throngs that crowds lives lanes , I have selected you.

Now will you give this child all your love, nor think the labour vain, nor hate me when I come to call and take the child back again.

I fancied that you have heard them say, dear Lord thy will be done. For all the joy the child shall bring the risk of grief will run.

Will shelter them while their here and the happiness they bring, forever grateful for their stay.

But should the angels call for the child, much sooner then planned, you'll brave the bitter grief that comes, and try to understand and maybe someday we will.


Tuesday 6 October 2020

Tough Stuff Tuesday


Hello Tuesday what a day I am having so restless and hot and not knowing what I am doing but being Tuesday it is tough stuff day.

Today's tough stuff is tooth enamel something all of us have for some of if not all of our lives.

Human tooth enamel is The hardest substance in the body. It forms in a thin layer over our teeth to give them strength and protection when we bite and chew.

Like bones it contains a lot of calcium and other minerals, if you tap your teeth you'll find the hard shiny enamel surface.

Although very strong enamel can be damaged by acid, which eats away at it making holes in the teeth. Bacteria that live on your teeth make acid when they feed on sugary food.

Brushing your teeth washes them away and protects the enamel.

Human tooth enamel, though isn't the hardest of all, Beavers, which like gnawing down trees have even harder ename; that contains a lot of iron.

The hardest material in the animal world is the enamel like substance that limpets teeth are made of.

Monday 5 October 2020



Another Monday has arrived and of course that means it is fact day.

The invention of the doughnut is either attributed to Dutch settlers in Pennsylvania who punched holes in their original Dutch “olykoeks” aka oily cakes. The hole in the middle has also been attributed tob the New England sea captain Hanson Gregory, who in 1847, punched holes in the dough because his mothers doughnuts were never cooked properly in the middle. Neither of them was the first to have this idea though. Archaeologists have found petrified fried cakes with holes in them in the south western united states in prehistoric Native American ruins.

In 1895, French brothers Auguste and Louis Lumiere demonstrated a projector system in Paris and in1907 they screened the first public movie.

Julius Caesar was the first to use coded communications, using what has become known as the Caesar cipher.

It takes 550 peanuts to make a 12 ounce or 35mljar of creamy peanut butter.

Half of the world's supply of raisins are grown in California

Sunday 4 October 2020

Just another week


I woke at 6am and after a decent nights sleep I got up and peed and decided to stay up. I sent Tasha a message asking if she could come and dress me and get breakfast for me, which she did.

I found Leo asleep in the spare room, seems that he wanted to stay last night.

Kathy arrived at 9.30 to give me a shower which she did but Tasha did my feet.

Spoke to mum for 45 minutes she was pleased to hear my voice and hear that I was ok after my fall yesterday.

Leo was struck by the butcher bird, in the face and it hurt.

I got up when the alarm went off, I opened the house up and then went to get dressed. Tasha arrived and helped me.

Kelli and her kids turned up for a visit with Jess. Daemon is spending the night with Jess.

The new ceiling fan arrived that Tim ordered.

Leo & Daemon have been here playing this afternoon. Tasha told them to go back to Leo's house at 5.30pm.

Mum was good when I spoke to her she spent 10 minutes telling how great Tasha is.

My head is sore to touch.

I woke at 6am before the alarm, just after I opened the house Tasha arrived to help me.

At 9am I had to take ½ a Phenergan in order to breath ok. This made me tired and at 1.45 I went and had a lay down but didn't sleep.

Tim was home from midday to 3.40pm as he had a split shift. I was done in, so worn out I just wanted to lay and listen to my book.

Another day started, I was annoyed with Tim as he wrote a shopping list on my discharged papers.

Also couldn't find the loungeroom house phone, Tasha found it dead in Leo's room. What it was doing there I don't know.

Been hot all day with sweat dripping out of me even though it isn't that warm.

Spoke to mum she was chatty she told me about the day she & Uncle Ronnie met Pop.

I am in so much pain in my left knee.

Tasha coming to give me a shower.

Up with the alarm as per usual going to be a warm day with possible showers. So Tim took the car to work.

Still dripping in sweat all day despite it not being that warm/hot.

Leo has been here since 1pm doing stuff in his room.

Mum told me she had a phone call from Aunty Pat, which means Krissy rang her and put Pat on. Mum said she sounded happy, Krissy told mum that she has to ring and book a time to go see her mum because of Covid 19. Aunty Pat is in the nursing home at Teralba.

Woke just before the alarm, found Leo asleep in his room. Dressed nicely in green with a bra because I am going to see the Dr to get my stitches out.

Dr appointment went well saw the nurse who removed the stitches with no problem.

Mum was in a state because of the nurse who rang the podiatrist she received a phone call from the dr's surgery about it and that caused her distress.

Decided to do some shopping at Big W online and of course the internet was slow as.........

Gave up and went to bed.

Woke at 6.30am got up but not dressed as Kathy is coming to shower me

Showered and dressed for the day. Managed to finish the Big W shopping.

Tasha picked it up ans I was annoyed that it didn't contain Jess's socks turned out that I didn't order them, although they were the first thing I looked at and added to the cart.

However, with all the problems I had they must have been removed so annoying.

Jess is working and Leo has been in and out of the house all day long. He treats this house as another home and we love it.

Thursday 1 October 2020

Thursday Poem


A Day Away

Brian E Pardee©  More By Brian E Pardee

Published: May 25, 2020

Some feelings are shallow, some feelings are deep.
Some make us smile, some make us weep.

Some we love, some we don't.
Some we'll savor, some we won't.

Some grounding, some uplifting,
Some long-lasting, some constantly shifting.

No matter what feelings I'm feeling today,
I know tomorrow is only a day away.


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