Defending Me.......Not

Last weekend while I was at my parents place last weekend dad got angry with mum and started yelling at her and I told him do not talk to my mother like that, he didn't like it but I didn't care I will not stand around and listen to him speak to my mother in a way I don't like.

My children are the same if the hear Tim speak to me in a nasty way they will say something Jessica is the one who does it most and it makes me feel great to know that they will defend me.

Now if only Tasha or Kathy would say something when they see Lucas being a bully and speaking to me and a bad way, Kathy has told me that she doesn't like the way he speaks to me at times but she doesn't say anything and that upsets me more then Lucas's behaviour.

What is worse though is that Tim doesn't say anything when he doesn't like the way I am being spoken to whether it is by one of the girls or by Lucas.

Why is it so hard for them to speak up and say don't speak to my mother like that?

DVDS

I have been watching dvds I borrowed from Bigpond movies call The Ghost Squad it is a British cop show and I have really enjoyed watching them. I would love to be able to have the time to watch more movies and dvds but I just never seem to have the time.

Last night the kids watched Good Luck Chuck on Foxtel Box Office and they said they enjoyed it, Tim also got to watch it when he got home from work which he liked as he complains he never gets to watch movies.

Although Tim has a habit of saving of a weekend when he is home that he never gets to watch the news, and he watches the news whenever he is home. So I get very annoyed with him and he doesn't understand why.

Day Care

Today I am feeling ok aching all over a bit but otherwise not to bad, not doing anything today just staying home and chilling.

At least it has stopped raining and hopefully I will be able to get some washing dried if only I could get motivated to go and peg it on the line...lol

Took Blain to day care and talked to Tasha about trying to find somewhere closer to send him as we really can't afford the petrol taking him out to Jesmond twice a week it is 18km each way and may not seem a lot but when you think that there is about 12 day care centres within 6km of us. The only reason she enrolled him where he is was because his other grandmothers sister is the manager where he is and she also told Tasha she would help pay, but of course she doesn't help pay and his father doesn't pay and it is only Tasha and Lucas who is paying so it should be up to her where she sends him not his father or his fathers mother.

Feeling Sick

There has been a lot of sickness going on in my household this last week, everyone with the exception of Tim has been sick with the flu is it any wonder though with all the cold wet days we have had lately. The only fine day we have had recently was Saturday Sandra's wedding day.

Kathy has been really sick and she has made sure everyone knows it, she is not nice to be around when she is sick (like a man)........lol

On Saturday my 3 girls all felt awful but still went to the wedding although Kathy and Jessica didn't go to the reception. Kathy came home and went to bed and although Tasha and Lucas stayed for the reception they left early and came home and went to bed as both felt sick. They all spent most of yesterday in bed sick as well and today Tasha is feeling better, Kathy is no better if anything she is worse and she has let us know.

Jessica wanted me to take Blain for the day and night but I have been to sick to bother although I did tell her I would take him tomorrow for the day if she likes.

I hope I feel better tomorrow as I hate feeling sick.

I was talking to Tasha the other day about how sometimes you can go from loveing someone to pretty much hating them, she now gets physicaly sick when she sees her ex and if wasn't for the fact that they have a child together she would never see him again.

Why has this happened well it's because he doesn't like to see her happy and she feels he goes out of his way to upset her and to try to destroy any new realationship she has. Seems to be something a lot of men do and it is so childish, he says he is over her and wants her to find someone new but then when she does and he finds out about it he has to cause trouble.

She no longer wants to be around him or see him or talk to him ever again this is sad but it is his own doing as he is a child in a mans body.

I can see her moving away and not telling him where she is.

Pissed off Daughters

Natasha has gone out for the night with Lucas to an engagement party I hope she has a good time as she doesn't go out very often, although her and Lucas have been going out a bit more of a weekend but only the weekend that Lucas doesn't have his son.

Kathy was in a mood this afternoon as Tim told my sister Sandra to put Kathy's furniture on the lawn at the house Kathy is moving out of (Sandra is moving in) anyway they put it on the front lawn. My mum rang me to say that they where leaving the house so I went straight over to watch the stuff, anyway Kathy was here when mum rang and when she found out that her stuff was on the front lawn she went off her head. When she got to the house she started throwing things around and going off at me.

Jessica got pissed off at me also this afternoon as she wanted me to look after Leo for the night but I didn't want to do it as I am very tired and the house is a mess. I know her house would also be a mess but she is the one who keeps telling me Leo is her son not mine.

There are times when I feel like everyone is yelling at me or going off at me for one reason or another.

Cost of Being Unwell

I have been getting really bad headaches even have had a few migraines lately and I really need to see a doctor but I can't afford to go and see my doctor so I am thinking about going and seeing a local one that bulk bills but that said I like my doctor the same one I have been seeing for 15 years. He knows me and my family so I am finding it difficult to see someone else.

However it will have to be done as I need stronger medication for these headaches as what I am taking just doesn't help much.

To make matters worse my arthritis is playing up because I haven't been able to afford to get my tables for that, everything costs so dam much lately and all I can think is I am lucky I am not like my parents who where spending $100 a month on medication now they get it free till the end of the year.

Well its late and I am off to bed hope everyone had a good weekend.

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