May she rest in peace

Yesterday was my mother in-laws funeral all went well although no one there showed much emotion, my husband had a few tears and I noticed her husband had a tear in his eye when we where at the cementry but all in all there was not much emotion.

Now I know everyone is different but when I went to my grandfathers funeral I cried a lot and I know I will be the same at my grandmothers funeral when that time comes. I also know when I lose either of my parents I will be a complete wreck.

We had to get up at 6am and get read to leave as we didn't want to get caught in peak hour traffic, the funeral was in Sydney but as it turned out it was nearly 7am before we left home. I was the first one up and got mself dressed got my grandson up and got him dressed and took him to day care then when we got to the day care I realised that I forgot to take his lunch so we had to drop his lunch then we where on our way.

Two of our daughter came with us along with one grandchild Sydney-May who was so cute running around everywhere yelling and squealing. Although my daughter said she ran out on the road and she had to chase her.

We left for home staight after the funeral and we where home again by 3pm in time for me to go to a flat inspection with my daughter.

I'm a Pushover

Why oh why am I such a push over at the moment I am watching Leo while his mother has gone out and she is going out for the night also as she is leaving on Thursday to go and visit a friend in Casino for a few days and she is not taking Leo with her. Jessica tells me that I can say no but I rarely do, I do not know why I find it hard to say no to my children.

Right at this stage Leo is outside playing with the dogs I hope he doesn't get to dirty as it has been raining on and off all day.

I love my girls so much and I think part of the reason I always say yes is because I do not want to deal with them when they are pissed off at me for saying no. Oh well I am who I am and if I don't want to watch a child I have to learn how to say NO and mean it and stand by it.

Going Blind

Above is a photo of my sister and my second daughter Natasha

Last week I heard some upsetting news my sister who is 6 years younger then me will be blind in one eye in 3 months and blind in the other eye in 6 months time without to fix the cataracts in both eyes.

In order to fix the bad eye she needs to have the operation next month the out of pocket expense for the operation is around $2000. The operation will have to be done at the private day stay hospital because if she waits to get into a public hospital she will already be blind in one eye.

Now she doesn't have the money for the operation and mum and dad has asked the family to chip in to help raise the money, but as day said that really means him, my hubby and maybe my brother although I know bro doesn't have much money either at this time.

When I told my youngest daughter she said she wanted to help even though she doesn't have much money she did give my mum $50 this morning and mum has said she is so proud of her for chipping in and so am I she is a wonderful girl

Off To School

My grandson Blain has started school this year and he looks so cute in his school clothes and he says he likes school so far hope it continues like that.

I didn't go with his parents to the school felt like if my daughter wanted me there she would have asked me to go. His fathers mother, however, did turn up along with his father's sister and that annoyed my daughter she said to me she didn't want them there but the woman just invited herself .

He wanted to go to school today but today is Saturday and there is no school so instead he has rang me 6 times as his mother will not get out of bed and see to him.

Bus Driver Again

Yesterday was hubby's first day at his new job although it is a job he has done before his is driving buses again last time around he drove for Blue Ribbon bus company now he is driving for Hunter Valley bus company but in fact it is the same company they have just changed their name. He did say that there has been a number of changes since he last drove buses but he seems happy with the job.

I think it is good just to have him back at work as he hated being out of work and was becoming very lazy not wanting to do anything as he felt like whats the point. I just hope he manages to keep this job for a while to come, as I think losing 3 jobs in 2 years has knocked him about mentaly a bit.

Running Off

This morning while taking Leo to day care he ran off and I had to chase him, in fact he ran half way up the street with me trying to run after him and although I didn't fall I did stumple a couple of times. I was really worried he would ran out onto the road and get hit by a car.

Anyway after stumbling the second time I looked back to see where Tim was and he is standing next to his van just watching, I had a surge of anger and yelled at Tim to help me so he starts to walk towards us as slow as a snail. I started to cry and Leo came back and from then I had a tight hold of his hand and of course he was fighting me and telling me he wanted his mummy.

Early Mornings

When my daughter moved in I said I hoped I wasn't the one who gets up with Leo each morning but as it has turned out it is me more often then not.

Now I know I can go in and get his mother up but I also know what she is like and when I do get her up she can be pretty lazy and instead of getting him breakfast and getting him dressed she will sit back and dose while he runs amuck. I have been up with him since around 7am and he has had breakfast followed by some ice cream and is dressed and outside playing with the dogs.

Jessica is not a morning person but then neither is my daughter Natasha who has a habbit of letting her son run amuck of a morning also, a person may not like having to get up early but when you have children you have to do it that is just a part of life.