A Hard Week

 

I woke at 6.30am as did Tim as he is working all day. It is a cold day as well, have to wear socks as my feet are cold.

Saw Kelli & kids when she dropped Blain off.

I keep thinking of things I want to tell Mum.

I have the start of a headache at 3pm.

Remembered that Dave rang last night and sent him a text. I was shocked that he rang only 5 minutes after I went to bed.

I sent Leigh an email with info about Mum.

Cathy & Mrs Haigh dropped by to pay their condolences and they gave me some lovely flowers.

I keep thinking today is Sunday.

Woke before the alarm at 5.30 and got up at 5.45.

First day of term 2 at school.

Finely got motivated to answer some mail only to run out of ink and the stuff Sandy gave me I can't get in. Just ended up with black ink on my fingers.

Up at 6am as usual but not your average day today we bury Mum.

There was a good turnout some people I did not know. I managed to speak, with Sandy & Sue beside me for support.

Natasha spoke on behave of her Dad threw tears.

At the graveside Jono pushed me in the wheelchair over grass not an easy task.

At Mum's later I felt left out, or out of place, without Mum I had no one to chat to. My siblings were busy and had their own friends to talk to.

At one point I needed to escape to pull myself together it was Tash, Kelli & Jono who came to my aid.

I did speak to a couple of people, one woman I don't know who she was told me I had a lovely and attentive son, referring to Jono.

I got through the day with hugs from Tim and the girls including Kelli and Jono.

When I was leaving I got the best hugs from Sandy & Dave.

The day after the funeral saw Tasha leave a comment on siblings group chat about how I felt yesterday, without me knowing. She later recorded and posted me talking to her about how I feel.

Dave & Leigh have arranged a BBQ at their place tomorrow afternoon. I am looking forward to it.

I am behind in doing stuff but the printer is working.

Another day with a cold start, socks needed to keep feet warm.

Tasha came down at midday and gave me a shower ready to go to Dave's this afternoon.

Jess driving me over after work this afternoon.