Cry Baby................or crying is ok................

Well good morning all, today in Newcastle it is supposed to be a lovely day on the hot side, I am up dressed and waiting for Summer to arrive, I wonder if it will still be morning by the time I get to post this. It is hard at times to get things done when I have Summer.

Today I want to talk about how Silence is often the loudest cry.

There’s always some truth behind ‘just kidding,’ knowledge behind ‘I don't know,’ emotion behind ‘I don't care,’ and pain behind: ‘It’s okay.’  So pay close attention to how people feel, especially those you care for most.   Sometimes what a person needs most is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.

I know myself when I am truly hurting I will say nothing, I will try my best not to let others see me cry, or how much they have hurt me. I can't tell you why I do this I just do, maybe I don't want to appear like a “cry baby”.

I feel that adults and often men more than women will teach children that it is not ok to cry, how often have the words don’t be a “cry baby” been said to a child who is crying over nothing. I think it would do for people to remember that crying if okay even if it is over nothing and instead of putting the child down for crying to give them a hug and say in a calm and soothing voice that it’s okay to cry but really is it that bad. Then talk it through and explain why you feel they are crying over nothing and why it isn't so bad, or if you think the child is just crying for attention than explain to the child that they don't need to cry to get your attention.

Of course it is not that easy to not get all bent out of shape and angry with a child who is crying just for attention but if possible take a deep breath and remain calm and talk to the child in quiet and calm voice.

If the child is crying because they have fallen over and hurt themselves than there is no reason to get angry the child needs to be comforted and not told to stop crying because “boys” don't cry that in my opinion is sending the wrong message to the child.

I get really annoyed when I hear someone put a child down because the child is crying, crying is the first way we learnt to communicate.

You are not a failure.....................Mummy loves you

It’s not who you are that holds you back, it who you think you’re not.

Judging yourself is not the same as being honest with yourself.  Don't sell yourself short!  You are capable of great things.  And don't ever let someone else make you feel like you're not good enough.  If they can't see how amazing you are, then they're the one who’s not good enough for you.  Their approval is not needed.

Searching this morning for something to write about I came across this and this made me think of my special girl and how she is feeling like a failure at this time in her life.

This morning I received a text that she sent to me last night in which she says she feels pathetic because she has no job, no qualifications, she doesn't even have a resume and doesn't know how to go about writing one that will make people want to hire her for a job.   

I don't know what to say or do to make her feel better about herself, is there anything I can say, in some ways I feel that this is something she has to do for herself my words sound empty and pointless.

How does one help someone feel better about themselves?

If you know tell me please, since all my words of support fall on deaf ears and leave me feeling sad and terrible for not being able to help.

I know that a person has to be responsible for their own happiness and self-worth but when a person is really beating themselves up about all the things they can't do how does a love one help.

I really don't expect any answers from anyone I am just saying how I feel, how as here mum I hate hearing and seeing her so down and feeling like a pathetic failure which I do not think she is. I can say to the cows come home that she is not these things but I can't make her believe me.

Homing Pigeons no I mean Homing Dogs.......................well in my dreams at least

Last night I had the strangest dream I am blaming it on what happened last night, now you are wondering what happened Tim had the front sliding door open I said to him that he should shut the door as Leo was playing with the dogs, well Tim says no and if the dogs get out I am not going to get them back well of course you can guess what happened  Leo made the mistake of letting the dogs inside and of course what happened they ran out the front door and that of course upset Leo he became hysterical and papa had to go out and find them, this was funny because he was so adamant that he wouldn't do that.

When I saw Tim walking in with DC in his arms I just smiled and he said “don't say a bloody word” Dino came home on his own about 15 minutes later.

Now to the dream well I dreamt that the dogs got out through the back gate when I opened it for some reason ( I don't generally open the back gate) anyway they got out and I than left to drive Leo to school and when I returned home I found Dino in the lounge room waiting for me. I then went and looked for DC but couldn't find him I looked all through the yard and when I came inside he was sitting in the hallway looking at me.

Now I then sat down and thought how did the dogs get into a locked house when they had ran out the back gate, so I go and open the gate and have a look around the dogs run past me and are gone so I shrug and walk inside only to find them in the hallway again looking at me.

Bloody dogs are not haunting my dreams, they are like homing pigeons always coming back even in my dreams……………lol

I have an opinion and I am not sorry for that.................but I am sorry if I have upset anyone

I will start this post by saying I am sorry to Jessica for making her feel like I was insulting her with my last post that was not my intention, I was just sounding off because that was how I was feeling when I wrote the post.  I know you will forgive me and I will say here and now that you are not the only daughter who expects me to do things for her, your sisters have had times when they have expected me to sort things out for them as well. It is just that they are now older and more self-sufficient now and the memory of me having to do everything for them has faded.

Today I am also feeling much better than I did yesterday, in fact I spent most of yesterday in bed and I even was back in bed for the night at 5.45pm yesterday. Jessica I am glad we didn't have Leo last night as I really don't know how I would have coped with him being that I spent 90% of the day in bed sick.

So just spoke to Jessica on the phone and looks like I will have Leo for the night and I will take him to school in the morning as she is feeling sick now herself.

Yesterday it rained all day and I was glad I was able to put the clothes in the dryer, today it is nice outside not wet or raining but not hot either. Tim took the car to work again though but he went to work at 1.30am so that is no surprise.  I told Jessica that I will pick Leo up after her dad gets home but I have no idea what time that will be though as I don't know when he will be home from work.

How do you feel when you say or do something that upsets a loved one, do you feel bad wish you could take it back or do you think you are right and why are they getting upset about something you think of as just the truth.

I am one of those people who get upset as I don't like to upset my family or those I care about.  However does that stop me writing things, well sometimes but more often than not it doesn't I write what I feel and then I say sorry later……………………….lol

I do not expect everyone to agree with me, but I also feel that my thoughts and opinions are mine and that is ok, no one has to agree with me but at the same time people shouldn't get all bent out of shape because I have an opinion.

I have times when I think they will get over it when they want something from me…………………my mum feels the same way. 

Decorations, Dogs and feeling like shit......................again...............

Good morning everyone, this morning I have been coughing so much that it like I am going to throw up and I have a bloody headache and body aches to boot, how lucky am I.

Yesterday afternoon I started to decorate my house for Christmas, and also started to do the letters from Santa to my grandchildren. I could pay for letters from Santa but I am cheap and just do them myself………………lol

Today is another wet and overcast day, here down under, and I was surprised when I got up to see that Tim rode the motorbike to work instead of taking the car.

Yesterday Jessica dropped off the dogs at my house while I was out, I knew she was going to do it but I am still annoyed I don't want them here and I would take them into the RSPCA and surrender them but I am really feeling like shit this morning and don't want to do it. I don't know why it has to be me who has to do these things I didn't want them dogs…………….ever……………….but it is me who has to sort them out and make phone calls and surrender them which is very annoying.

There are times when I feel that my girls are all adults now and yes the oldest two manage to do things for themselves but Jessica my special girl (youngest) still expects mummy to sort stuff out for her and make phone calls and such. I am sure if I could apply for jobs for her and go to interviews for her she would  make me do so in order for her to get a job………………………..lol

She is getting better but still I didn't force her to get Dino, it was her decision and she should be the one getting rid of him.

Yesterday my sister asked me if she was getting a personalised calendar for Christmas, she said I have given her one for the last 4 years so she is expecting to get one for next year this Christmas, I hadn't even thought about getting her one at this stage but I will sort it out because that is what I do.

So today’s question at what age do you think your children should be able to do things for themselves such as make phone calls and deal with mistakes like getting a pet then realising you don't want said pet so have to make arrangements to get rid of said pet……………………..Jessica is 24 by the way……………..

Sometimes I think I have mothered her too much………………………..lol

Close in age

Good morning everyone, I am up and writing at 6.55am again this morning, doubt I will get it finished though as Summer will be here any time now. 

Anyway onto today's topic, age, well closeness in age and how even though a couple of people can be close in age there can look to be an wider gap between them than there is. 

In my family we have had at different times a number of babies all born around the same time and are pretty close in age, such as in 2010 when we had Temika, Liarna and Sydney-May born all in January. Look at them now even though there are only 16 days between the oldest and the youngest of the girls when you see them sometimes it seems like there is a larger gap and at other times the gap doesn't seem that large at all. 

Then we have my nieces, Hayley and Denni also born in the same month and year but the gap between them to me looks bigger than it is. 

Which one is oldest.............can you guess..................and by how much.............

Sometimes the gap between to children is greater like a year between them but still people will think that they are the same age I remember when Sandra & David were toddlers and I would take the out I would often get asked if they were twins.

There is roughly 2 years between each of my girls born in 85, 87 & 89 because I always thought it was good to have the kids close in age so they would have each other as playmates when they were little and each other as pals as they got older.

The gap between my sisters Jeannie and Sue isn't that big either, what do you think do they look close in age.

I don't have an up to date photo of Liarna, how annoying is that.

Good Morning how do you feel about personalised stuff.......................tell me tell me do

Good morning everyone, yes I am up and dressed and ready to face the day at a decent hour 7am it is as I sit and write this, this morning. 

Now what to write about, of course last night as I laid in bed trying to go to sleep I composed a whole post in my head and this morning I don't remember it.................doesn't that just suck.

Anyway, yesterday I mentioned that I had created personalised calendars and Christmas cards, so now I am asking are you a big card giver, you know until a few years ago I thought cards to be a waste of money and couldn't see the point in giving or receiving them. Now I have 8 birthday cards and 1 Christmas card hanging on my wall above my computer desk. I love to give and receive cards and spend time picking out nice ones. I also like to do personalised ones at Christmas for not only me to send out but I do them now for my sister Sandra and my parents and this year I did them for Kathy as well. 

I have also done a personalised calendar for Kathy and my parents and myself, but the do take a lot of time adding all the birthdays and photos and such. As time consuming as they are I do enjoy doing them, if I didn't I wouldn't bother right. 

Would you like to receive a personalised card from a love one and how about a calendar do you think you would like a calendar with photos of your family and loved ones and the birthdays all ready added so you can see what ones are coming up during the month. 

I have become known in the family as the one who does personalised gifts and I think I like that. 

Feeling Tired and So Many Different Time Zones

Damn I am tired today; I woke up tired and have been struggling all day.

I have although manage to create 2 calendars and some Christmas cards for my parents and myself.

How many different time zones does the county you live in have, here in Australia we have 3 most of the time but when we have daylight savings it is more like 5, as the maps show.

Australian Eastern Standard Time, covers the eastern states of Queensland, New South Wales (with the exception of the town of Broken Hill), Victoria, Tasmania and the Australian Capital Territory. AEST is equal to Coordinated Universal Time plus 10 hours (UTC +10). 

Australian Central Standard Time , covers the state of South Australia, the town of Broken Hill in western New South Wales and the Northern Territory. ACST is equal to Coordinated Universal Time plus 9.5 hours (UTC +9.5).

Australian Western Standard Time, covers Western Australia.  AWST is equal to Coordinated Universal Time plus 8 hours (UTC +8).

Thank You

I want to start off by saying a big THANK YOU to all those who wished me Happy Birthday yesterday, I had a bloody great day, a really yummy lunch at my parents place with my family with the exception of my sister Sue who for some reason didn't come, no idea she hasn't bother to reply to text messages or anything so don't know why she didn't come.  

It was a full house with a lot of noise and fun, the boys Blain & Leo had a great time playing on the trampoline and even Dawson was out on the trampoline with the boys and of course all the girls. Although they did get a bit rough at times and Leo managed to hurt Dawson he didn't mean to hurt Dawson, I talked to him about it later in the afternoon and he said that Dawson is so big he didn't think he could hurt him.....................lol 

Also yesterday afternoon I had a scare, I couldn't find Leo, yeah he was watching tv in the lounge room I went to the toilet and when I returned he wasn't here. So I called him and he didn't answer so I walked around the villas calling him and he didn't answer and even Bear next door walked around calling him. Just as I rang his mum he came out of a neighbours house were he was playing with her grandchildren. 

Tonight I will have Blain here as his mum's car is out of rego and I will have to drive him to school on Monday morning. 

This morning I was awake up at 6.30am but that was ok that meat Leo slept for 12 hours last night, I was expecting him to be awake earlier.  

Tim took the car to work again today because he had to go to work at 12.30am, so Jessica will have to come and get Leo this morning I will try and ring her around 10ish. 

I am now 51 years old.............how cool is that..............

Well today I turn 51, yeah can you believe that I am just over half a century old how cool is that. Yesterday I wore this new dress which was given to by my niece Kelli for my birthday along with the brownie pan which I really wanted.

Last night Tim gave me this card and a $100 gift card for Big W, he wanted to make sure I know he loves me no matter how big I am or how much I eat and that he can't imagine his life without me in it. 

Today I am going over to my parents place for lunch, mum will pick me and Blain up around 10ish as Tim took the car to work and Jessica will bring me back again along with Leo as we will have Leo for the night. I told Jessica that he will have to be quiet as Tim will be in bed not long after he gets home from work as he has to get up at midnight  to go back to work. 

This is what Jessica got me for my birthday and have to say I love it, the hand matches hers but is a bit bigger she said it is the mumma hand and I added Leo because well he is her son. 

Home Again, Home Again, Baby Crying at my feet.........................

Yesterday I just never got around to posting I was busy, Jessica took me out to get my birthday present she prefers to have me with her so she knows what she is getting me is something I really want. I promised not to show what she got me till Saturday which is my birthday.

Yesterday we didn't go and see nan as mum wanted to stay home till after Dawson got picked up for work experience, Dawson gets a bit antsy if mum isn't there, he worries if the guy is late and finds it hard to just sit and wait. 

Not sure if we are going today either as mum is having a great deal of pain with her heel, I think I mentioned before that mum has a couple of spurs on her heal and there seems to be nothing they can or will do to help and the pain is just so bad some days making it painful to walk. Mum said she will see how she is this morning if the pain isn't too bad she will ring me and we will go and see nan, otherwise we will give it a miss and may go on Saturday instead. 

As you may have gathered we are home now, we arrived home Tuesday afternoon and it was good to get home and have a nice hot bath and go to bed in my own bed. I was in bed early too but I just felt worn out. 

Jessica and Leo turned up around an hour after we got home and stayed for a few hours, Leo misses us if he doesn't see us each week and of course Jessica misses her mummy & daddy. It goes without saying that we miss them as well.

Today I am hoping to manage to answer some of my mail and I have to get the Christmas decorations out and look at what I have so I can buy more of what I don't have, if that makes any sense. 

Not much to do while travelling

This is a post I wrote on Sunday and you are getting it this morning, Tuesday aren't you lucky.

I wish I had my digital recorder with me, as while we are driving with nothing much to do I keep thinking of things I would like to write about but of course by the time we stop those thoughts are gone. So I found a note pad and paper and will try jotting down the topic that springs to mind and hopefully I will be able to take that and turn it into a post.

While we have been driving I have been reading a bit, but I can only read for 30 minutes max before I begin to get car sick and many times after only 10 minutes I have had to stop and take a break for 5 minutes.

We don’t have a TV in the motor home, ok that is not 100% right we have a TV lying flat at the foot of the bed but we do not set it up for one main reason there is no TV reception, my parents watch a lot of DVD’s while they are travelling.

Tim has been watching the old Moonlighting series which he has downloaded onto his computer and I have been writing things on the computer and in my diary and reading. This is fine with me I love to read, mum says they get a lot of reading done while they are travelling as well.

The morning I am writing this I was up and dressed by 5.45am, Tim is still in bed asleep and I have little to do but either write or read.

Stormy Weather

Well it is Monday night and we are in a caravan park in Sawtell which for those who have no idea where that is it is near Coffs Harbour, which I know doesn't help much for 99% of my readers but oh well I can also tell you that we are now in the state of New South Wales which is my home state and in my opinion the best state in Australia.

Just as we were approaching Coffs it started to storm, so Tim pulled over as it looked like it might hail and I think that was a wise decision as were we are which is only 15minutes from where we pulled over it was hit hard with the storm it has brought down a few trees in the park. There is a caravan not far from us that has been damaged bad, so if he had kept driving we would had driven into the heart of it, as it was by pulling over we missed it.

Although as I type this tonight it is raining again and there is some thunder and lightning around but mostly just rain.

Thankfully I had my shower before it started to rain and Tim just went and had his as it started to rain again. I just hope I don’t need to go to the toilet as I am not going out in this weather………lol

We will be home tomorrow sometime and I can say I am looking forward to a hot bath and my own bed.

Little Leo rang me earlier asking if I could go and make his mummy better, she was crying as she is in a lot of pain, she cut her gum while flossing and Jessica is like me she doesn't handle pain well. I hate seeing/hearing her cry and not be able to do anything to help her; it was also upsetting to hear Leo say he wanted me and papa to make his mummy better. I could hear how upset he was and how worried about his mummy he was.

Some Excitement was had yesterday

Well we had a little excitement the motor home stopped on the motorway on our way to the Gold Coast it looked like we would have to call road side assistance and be towed but after Tim spent about half an hour trying to find out who to ring he finally told me to turn the motor home right off as in shut down the GPS but instead I tried it and it kicked over.

So we are now at a caravan park in Southport it is the dearest place and it is more like a dump, well it has a rundown feel to the place but the amenities are clean and close by but I just don’t think it is worth the money $42 it cost to stay here. On a plus side KFC was right across the road so that is what we had for tea last night.

You know last night I was that tired I just couldn't be bothered having a shower, oh well one night without one doesn't hurt.

I hope the motor home kicks over no problem today, fingers crossed.

Why do we say fingers crossed, I wonder, where did the saying fingers crossed come from does anyone know?

Tim has said that he will contribute to any cost there is to repair the motor home or to have it serviced, so I sent mum a text last night about that so she can let dad know, no wait a minute I think I sent the text to dad bugga, dad has a bad habit of not checking his phone I might have to text mum to tell dad to check his phone. This is why we usually just text mum…………………..lol

Another day another different Macdonald's

Well today Saturday, has been a long busy day doing bugga all again, we went and had breaky at Macca's then we went to Northgate so Tim could look at Sprinter camper vans and then we had a talk about how often we would use it and whether it would be worth the expense they cost $50,000 and are not as big as the motor home we are driving. He has decided he wants to speak to mum & dad about helping them pay the on road costs of this motor home in exchange for being able to use it a couple of times a year, I do not know what mum will think of that idea as dad was hoping Tim would buy this motor home but he/we would rather spend our money on a couple of more overseas holidays as we really wouldn't get a lot of use out of the motor home. 

After that we went to visit Tim's cousin Christine and her partner Alan, it was an uncomfortable visit as we don't know them and Tim hasn't seen Christine in 30yrs although they have spoken via Skype. We only stayed about 45 minutes and then we headed to Maroochydore were we are staying the night, we couldn't get a ensuite site as we would have to stay 2 nights for that but we are right next to the amenities so it's all good. 

Tomorrow we should see our niece Kelli & Daemon and hopefully Kirsty and her partner Jacob as we are only just around the corner from where Kirsty lives and by around the corner I mean about 5 minutes or so. 

I have arranged to see Kirsty and Kelli for lunch today it will be nice to see them.

Friday's Post On Saturday Morning

I am writing this on Friday night at around 7.20pm in the town of Tweed Heads on the New South Wales/Queensland border. We are staying at the Pyramid Holiday Park. I am drinking a Raspberry Vodka Cruiser to help me unwind a bit as I was feeling cranky because I said to Tim that I wanted some hot chips for tea but he took no notice and so I didn't get them like I wanted.  Add to that he has opened every bloody window in the motor home and I am feeling cool, not cold but cool and when I said something he is well I am hot and the breeze is nice, granted it is nice but I am now as I said cool and that isn't helping my mood.

Ok I just went and had a shower and guess what I couldn't turn the cold water on and the hot water was bloody hot.  I had to keep turning the tap of to let the water cool down.
Anyway I haven’t told you that we are going to Brisbane for a couple of days, Tim wants to visit his cousin who he hasn't seen in over 20 years.

Oh yeah Tim didn't want to have the air con going in the motor home so for a while, a long while I was bloody hot and starting to feel sick. Also it took him over 6hrs for him to stop for lunch and I was starting to feel sick because I hadn't eaten.

Then he couldn't decide where to stop for the night, first it was Ballina then he decided on Tweed Heads, which is where we are tonight, all in all we had driven for 11 hours before we stopped for the night.

I would post this tonight but I forgot to ask at reception about the password for the internet so I will do it in the morning when we go to Macca’s for breakfast. 

It's Thursday already................what happened to Wednesday

Yesterday was one of those days when I didn't seem to get much done but felt like I was busy all day, as I am sure we have all had days like that. It started when Kathy arrived to drop off Summer and then about an hour or so later my sister Sandra turned up to drop off Temika when she dropped her step son Zac at school. As it turned out Ed had to go and have a chat with the principal as Zac was having some kind of trouble at school.

Oh yeah before Sandra got here Natasha turned up to wash her car, she doesn't have anywhere to wash it at her place.

Just as Sandy & Ed were leaving mum arrived for us to go to the nursing home, then Temika decided to be difficult and not want to get into the car to go to the nursing home as we were dealing with Temika, Tim arrived home from work . Finally we were able to get going and went out to see nan, who was looking ok, not great but not too bad either.  

Yesterday I didn't get to have a nap, as when Kathy had left with Summer I was busy doing a bit of housework and then I had a bath and all in all just ran out of time, if I want to have a nap after Kathy picks up Summer I have to go straight to bed when she leaves but usually I am busy doing other things I didn’t get around to doing during the day.

This morning I woke just as Kathy was arriving to drop off Summer and I have already managed to a load of washing and pegged it out to dry, while Summer is napping I would love to vacuum but it would make too much noise and wake her and I don’t want that, so I am writing this instead.

Also yesterday Kelli & Daemon left in fact they left at around 4am, Jono picked them up and drove them to the airport, yeah, you read that right the airport, they, have gone to visit her sister Kirsty in Queensland for around 3.5 weeks.

Kelli said that Daemon slept the whole flight there which was good she was a little worried about how he would handle the flight and if his ears popping would upset him but nope, he was good.

Ok Summer has woken up and I have now vacuumed out, so the floor is looking much better, Summer did start to cry a bit while I was vacuuming out but she is ok now.

Oh yeah this morning I received a delivery of 5 boxes of gifts that I have bought from Chrisco http://www.chrisco.com.au and Hamper King https://www.hamperking.com.au so now I am expecting Tim to have something to say about all that I have bought but the gifts make up 90% of Christmas shopping and he likes that I am not asking for money to buy gifts.

Speaking of Queensland, tomorrow, Tim and I will be borrowing my parent’s motor home and be setting off for a trip to Queensland ourselves.  I will have to pack some clothes and stuff to take with us this afternoon.  

We are only going for a few days as Tim only has 5 days off work and he wants to go and visit his cousin who lives around Brisbane.

We were thinking about going to Dreamworld http://www.dreamworld.com.au/ but it is going to cost us $150 for the two of us to get in and Tim was a little put off by the price so I said we didn't have to go there.

What the hell.........................it's just grass......................not pot...................

Austrian police are seeking witnesses to an unusual theft………….the thief stole huge amounts of grass……………..and by grass I mean grass…………..not pot…………………

Someone secretly mowed a farmer’s field, according to a police statement a farmer near the village of Liebenfels about 200km south-west of Vienna reported that his field had been mowed and the grass taken……………..what the hell………………

In Beijing a 10 year old Chinese boy jumped 30 floors to his death, why, well it seems he was supposed to write a self-criticism letter as ordered by his teacher in way of a punishment for talking in class.

After failing to complete the task the teacher allegedly told him to jump out of a window and he did. It was reported that the saying “teacher I can’t do it” was found written in one of his textbooks……..what the hell……………………

       

Bullying.....................not good..................

Being bullied is something we think of happening to children at school but the sad fact is that a lot of bullies continue the bulling into their adult life. I feel this happens partly because it works for them, by that I mean by bulling people they get what they want. In some cases the bully will mistake fear for respect, they think their victims respect them and that is why they do what the bully demands.

Yes I mean demands because most bullies demand things be done their way, they don’t ask for a task to be done they tell you in a demanding way that it has to be done.

Some kids because bullies because they think if they don’t get in first then they will be the victim of a bully, which is a sad thing. They carry the bulling into their adults lives.

After years of being a bully it is all they know so they go out into the workforce and think bossing people about is the right way to do things and some will not get that they are still a bully.

Most bullies just don’t see the damage their actions cause as many of us who have been bullied become good at hiding how hurt we feel, we will not allow the bully to see our pain. This we will often carry with us for most or all our lives. It is really hard to let our guard down and t allow others to see our pain, our scars and who we really are.