Forgiveness

"Resentment is allowing someone to live rent free in your head.

Forgiveness is handing that person an eviction notice."

A Change for the better or not........you tell me.......

Yesterday I went from this to this and have had some mixed reactions my parents and sisters say they like it and my husband and youngest daughter say they hate it and to never do it again. The reason for the change………….I just got fed up with my hair I felt like it was just blah and felt the need for a change.

It has been over 30 years since my last perm I was around 15 when I had it done last. My oldest daughter told me she wasn’t sure whether she likes it or not.

Yesterday when I picked up Leo from day care he didn’t recognise me at first and when he realised it was me he came and looked at my hair and tried to flatten it and said he didn’t like it he wanted his nanny back and when I said this was how my hair was and it just be straight again he said he wanted to wet it to make it go straight again……….really he was so cute and funny at the same time.

The reactions of Tim and Jessica yesterday afternoon had me near tears I was that down about how they reacted I had been happy with the different look and they made me feel like a freak…………….

When my hair looked like this I liked it but often it just didn't and I was really hating it........... So what do my blog friends think which is the better look and please be honest.....

Surgeries

Ok today’s topic will be surgeries have I had any have you had any, well I had my first surgery at the tender age of 5 when I had my tonsils and adenoids removed then I was lucky to go well into my adult life before having any more surgeries.

The next surgery I had was when I had my gall bladder removed in 2004 at the age of 42 this was done through key hole surgery and I was in hospital a week after the surgery. Then in 2009 I had surgery to fix my incontinence I think they used Vaginal Mesh to fix this problem. I remember when I went to the incontinence clinic they discovered that my pelvic floor muscles where so weak that they were like non-existent and I do not think they have improved at all.

Those are the only surgeries I have had in my 48yrs no broken bones and I take calcium each day to help keep my bones strong as I do not want to have any broken bones if I can avoid it.

Fav Colour

I have been thinking about what my favorite colour is recently as someone asked me just that question and my first answer was pink or purple now I have to say I do like both colours but not all shades of the colours. I do not like hot pink or dark purple that much I prefer more much light softer shades the dark colours are to harsh for me.

I also think that the darker colours are too dark and this year I find myself wanting to be lighter and happier and when I wear the dark colours then I find myself feeling more down and depressed and I don't want to feel like that anymore I want to be happy and lighter and feel carefree even when I am not being carefree.

For many years I wore a lot of dark colours mostly black but it has only been in the last couple of years that I have found myself moving towards lighter colours and I wonder which came first the lighter mood or the lighter colours.................Does it matter which came first I don't think so, I think what matters is that I am in a better place that I like myself, I'm happy with who I am that's what matters most.

So to those who read this what is your favorite colour and do you know why it is your favorite.

Me

Today I noticed that I have another 2 followers they are Lindylou http://lindyloumac.blogspot.com
and Jamie http://everyone-thinks-i-can-fix-it.blogspot.com
I would like to say a big welcome to them and hope they continue to enjoy my ramblings.

Today I thought I would share with you a bit about how I have you changed during the past year. I have become happier in myself the reason for this is unknown I just find that I am. I have many days when I am so excited that I am all bubbly inside. I have also become more content with how I look yes I am bigger then I would like but I am eating right and I know I do not exercise as much as I should, so I just have to accept that this is who I am at this stage in my life and no one can change who I am but me.

I have rediscovered my love of blogging and have started to write blog posts more often, I am also starting to hand write some of my letters to pen pals yes I do still mostly do my letteres on the computer but when I was without a printer and had to handwrite some letters I discovered that I do like to hand write them.

I also have noticed that I am getting a thicker skin where my children are concerned and not letting their hurtful words upset me as much, yes I do still get upset but I am finding that more and more I am telling myself that they do not mean it...........also I have started to say NO to them more often and when I do I tell myself they will get over it and that I am allowed to say NO. Yes I am still for the most part a push over and let my girls talk me into doing things I do not want to do but I guess that is me and I am not going to change that much.............

I have also realised that I do like being the reliable, sensible Jo-Anne the one that my daughters and siblings can relie on.................

Gifts and New Followers

Look What I got from a wonderful blog pal.....lucky me I love the postcards they have been added to my collection and the note book will be used every day till it is full it is so great and I feel like such a lucky woman.............I can not say thank you enough for these..............

I would like to say a big hello to the following people who I noticed today are now following me, Sarlight http://crazythaughts.blogspot.com
and Hayy Goaz http://pineconestew.blogspot.com
welcome and I hope you enjoy reading my ramblings..........

I am sitting here this morning with the heater on behind me and The People's Court with Judge Marilyn Milan playing on the telly I like this judge ok she is not like Judge Judy but I still like her ok who am I kiding I love these real life court show and have been know to watch one after another.............

I really should be ironing but I hate ironing and have a habit of putting it off and putting it off till I have no choice but to get off my bum and do it......I also want to answer a few letters maybe I will get a chance to do the letters this afternoon or tonight I don't do much at night I find around 7pm I just want to sit and watch telly and not do anything...........

Bubbling with excitment

I have woken up all happy and bubbley this morning is there a reason for this, answer no I just am I have been doing a happy dance sitting in my chair, yes I said I am doing a happy dance while sitting here writting this. I am also listening and kind of watching Sesame Steet yeah Sesame Street well Leo is up and he is sitting in front of the telly...........I was up early this morning as I had to watch Sydney while her mum went into work for a little bit..........
I did upset Kathy because I did not want to get up and go over to her place and watch Syd this morning I just prefer to watch her here in my home...............

I may be a little odd but I do not like Big Bird I think he is weird and far to big to be a bird when I was little I was freaked out by him but now that I am all grown up I do not get freaked out by him anymore but I still think he is freaky............

What else can I tell you today, well I have to go over to the hospital to get the results of my gastroscopy, I already know the results will be normal which is a bit of a pain as it does not explain why I am often feeling nausea all the bloody time.

Kathy has come and picked up Syd while I was writting this and now I just have Leo climbing all over me asking for ice cream for breakfast, if I give it to him I wonder if his mum will find out yes I know that should not be the burning question but it will keep him quite and let me get on with important stuff like blogging.............

My Amazing Followers

I would like to say thank you to each and every follower I have. I noticed over the weekend that I had gained another follower and I am so happy yes I do not have a great number of followers but I am so happy with the ones I have. Up until this year I never took any notice of how many followers I had and in fact rarely look to see how many followers I have but just happen to notice on Friday that I went from 25 to 29 followers..............

Some of my new followers are:
Jilda http://jildawatson.blogspot.com,
Byakuya http://serenityindex.blogspot.com ,
Desiree http://driftwoodramblings.blogspot.com
Teresa //themiddlesideoflife.blogspot.com
Mags 118htthttp://mags118.blogspot.comp:
Joanne http://10minutes2breathe.blogspot.com
Becca http://www.everydaylifes.com
just to name a few, although to be honest since I do not look at who my followers are I can not be sure in what order I have gained new followers but that isn't important as for me all my followers are important.

I am not a very competitive person and just for the most part go with the flow, is that a good or bad thing or is just what it is..........I think it is just what it is neither good nor bad.

Blogging for me is a great hobby/ past time call it what you will I love it I love the people I meet here and at my other blogs and everyone has a great way of making me feel better about myself and I want to say a big thank you to all of you...............

Sunday Afternoon

Bloody hell it is Sunday afternoon already where has the weekend gone........................

I blame it on the fact that I went and did my shopping yesterday instead of Friday and it has thrown me out, I did get to have a bit of a sleep in this morning not getting up tll 9am. When Leo tried to wake me at 7am I told him to go and wake his mother, but when I got up at 9am I found him up by himself playing with his toys and his mum still in bed asleep.

While I was getting his breakfast I told his mum to get up and get him changed and dressed for the day which she did but she also complained about having to get up and do it. After Tim got up he and I took Leo with us while we drove out to the bus depot so he could collect some empty drink cans, yes I said empty he collects them and cashes them in and the money goes to our grandkids. We also went to the shops to get a few things but Tim can be so frustrating at times his idea of keeping an eye on Leo is to let him run off while I am busy getting stuff from the deli.............

Also Tim took Leo with him when he went to drop his van off at the panel beaters but did he tell me he was taking Leo...........NO so I go outside to see where he is and he is no where around my common sense told me that Tim took him with him but I did think how hard would it have been for Tim to let me know Leo was going with him......... Since it is Sunday afternoon the panel beaters are closed so he took photos with his phone so he can prove that it was dropped off with the same damage that it had from the accident, just in case something happens to it overnight......

I am hoping to be able to spend the afternoon reading some blogs and of course leaving comments if my family will allow me to do so without wanting my attention every few minutes.

Simply Awsome thank you............

Today has been a different type of Friday for me, I didn't go to breakfast with the family and no spending most of the day out shopping. Why you may wonder well because my mum said that my nephew Dawson wanted to go out to the club for lunch and she asked me if I would like to join them and I said I would and since we where going out for lunch both me and mum thought it would make sense to skip the Friday breakfast. Lunch was good it is an all you can eat buffet and the food is good although I am not a big eater but still I went to be went to be with my mum and my sister Sandra came also with her daughter Temika who was such a good girl she sat in the high chair and ate her food without playing up.

Yesterday afternoon I managed to get time to have a look around the Amazon site and this is what I bought they are letter J broaches on in gold and one in silver and no I didn't plan to get two letter J's I was going to get a J and an M but somehow I ended up ordering two J's oh well I might go back and order the M one later on, I still have $10 left on the gift voucher that this awsome bloke gave me.......... http://www.thesimpledude.com if you have not already been and checked out his blog do so now............not later now you will not be sorry he has an awsome blog.

I always were a broach when I go out along with my angel pin and of course ear rings and necklace as I like to look nice. So these new broaches will get a lot of wear..........

Tomorrow I will show you something else I got from another wonderful blogger..........so come then and see what it is.........

Chocolate Cake

I think I will make a chocolate cake I love chocolate cake but not all chocolate cakes I am not a big fan of chocolate mud cake I like a lighter cake mud cake seems to dense/heavy for my liking. Also if I bake my own I can use skim milk. I do like to buy cakes from time to time but since I believe they are made with full cream milk and I prefer skim so so do not buy cakes very often, also it is cheaper to make my own............

I use skim milk in all my cooking and when I make my potato back I use light and creamy and reduced fat cream instead of the full fat type, I like to reduce the amount of fat in my cooking where I can.

I do not like to deep fry food either although hubby has a habit of eating deep fried food I do much prefer to grill my food or bake in the oven. Except when I am making home made chips they of course have to be fried it is the only way to make them.

How much is too much...........Avon

This afternoon I decided to start a big task that was to catalogue my Avon so I empty all of it onto my bed and get a note book and start writing it all down. First step I decided would be to just write down everything I have then next step to get a different exerciserbook and divide it into parts such as face creams, foundation, eyeshadows/eyeliners etc etc. This part I will do tomorrow as it took me nearly 2 hours to just record everything I have.

Now while I was doing this first part Tim walked into the bedroom and asked me what I was doing and I told him and he looks at all the Avon and goes off about how much I have and why do I have so much and that he thinks I have a problem as I have so much and I am still buying more..........

I use Avon as presents to many of my female relatives for their birthdays and Christmas and of course I use it myself. Now I know I have a lot of it and I also sell Avon so the reason for cataloguing what I have is so at times if someone orders something I already have here I can just get it out of the box. Although I only sell to a couple of people but that is ok I am not in it to make money.

What really annoyed me is that Tim had to have a go about me buying Avon as my dad says I do not drink or smoke and the Avon is useful stuff unlike Tim's smokes and grog which only gets pissed and crapped out..........yes those are my dad's words..................

Out of Action Yesterday

I was out of action yesterday and really I am not much better today but today I can not just check out of everything as I have little Sydney-May here while her mum is at work so I have to be up and doing stuff. Now yesterday I was not good and still I managed to do 2 loads of washing and peg it out and then get it in when it was dry, why because I knew my daughters would not want to do it and I just was not in the mood to listen to her them complain. Today I also have to go and peg a load on the line which I will do shortly.

I think I have the same bug as my mum as she was feeling the same way as me but I think she is doing better now and I am not all I can do is hope that by tomorrow I am on the mend..........As I ate spending so much time on the toilet all I can say is thank goodness for petroleum jelly which I have used after each visit to the toilet.

Just went and pegged the clothes on the line and belive me it is bloody cold out there thankfully there was only a few things to go onto the line. Although I came in and turned the heater on to help warm me up.

At least Kathy didn't complain when she got here this morning about me being sick again as it is a pleasure for me to feel like I am feeling today. No one wants pains in the tummy and to be running to the toilet every 10 or 15 minutes............

I know I should have gotten Jessica up to watch the kids this morning but I know what she is like and thought why bother, and they kids are not too demanding and I have managed to do a few things on the computer this morning. When I did get up this morning I found that Tim had gotten up with Leo as he had a late start, well in fact he is only going into paint the lunch room at the depot this morning and I have no idea how long he will be gone. He can be helpful sometimes although it often surprises me when he is..............

I just went and made Leo and Sydney-May both a sandwitch for lunch he is eating his he loves and I mean really loves Strawberry jam sandwitches, I have even caught him a couple of times eating the strawberry jam straight out of the jar which a spoon...........

Life Goes On and on and on and on...................

Today has been a day spent at the computer blogging when I should be writting letters to pen pals which I will get aroung to doing at some point.......there are times when there doesn't seem to be enough hours in the day to get everything I want done. I have clothes to put away and the house needs to be tidy and the floor swept but still I am sitting here blogging...........am I a naughty girl or am I just taking some time for me?

I didn't have to get up with Leo this morning as I told his mother to get up with him and when I woke when the phone rang I find little Leo watching telly and his mother laying on the floor in front of the heater kind of asleep. Now do not get me wrong I have no problem with her doing that as she was still keeping an eye on Leo I just thought why could she not be bothered to get up and anser the phone which was only a few feet away from her.

I have often told Kathy that when she is tired she should lay on the lounge and just let Sydney play around near her and just rest her eyes for a bit, but she will not do it instead she would prefer to whine and bitch about how tired she is to me.............as if I could do anything about it. I do not live with her............. even when she doesn't have Sydney because she is at her dads Kathy will not rest and then when Sydney comes back to her she will be complain that she is so tired and wants a break..........I love her but she is so frustrating at times.........

Kim you will be missed

The last few days I have been thinking about a pen pal of mine Kim, this woman was my parents next door neighbour for many years and after they moved to Queensland we have kept in touch and my parents have even gone to Queensland to visit them on a couple of occasions.

Around a year ago she told us that she was diagnosed with cancer of the oesophagus and they only gave a about a year to live, this was terrible news for all of us who know her as she is was a wonderful caring woman with a big heart.

She never ever forgot anyone’s birthday and would always ask how my girls were doing a long with my grandchildren.

Last night my sister rang me to tell me that she had passed away yesterday afternoon. Even though we all knew it was coming it still was a bit of a shock. Most of my family would love to be able to go to her funeral but since as I said they live in Queensland and we live in New South Wales it may not be possible to get there.

Another Dozen Questions & Answers

1. What feature of the opposite sex do you notice first?

Their eyes I am always drawn to a person’s eyes first.

2. Do you talk to yourself?

Yes often when I am shopping and trying to remember what I am looking for

3. What is your current relationship status?

Married to Tim for 26yrs and for the most part still happy and in love.

4. Do you have a garden?

Nope

5. What is your favorite licorice flavor?

Strawberry

6. What is your favourite food?

Baked potatoes followed by chocolate

7. What colour scheme is your bedroom?

Don’t have one really the walls are a light blue

8. Do you carry a donor card?

No hubby is against it but I think I will change that next time I renew my licence.

9. In your opinion, is the glass half empty or half full?

Half full always

10. Vanilla or Chocolate?

Chocolate

11. What is the perfect a/c temperature?

My a/c doesn’t have temperature control so really don’t know just know I do not like it to hot or too cold

12. What was the last movie you saw in the theater?

Damn I do not remember as I just do not go to the movies I usually just wait till they come to telly