Hello Monday................I Feel Sad

Hello Monday, looks like I am going to have another week without a car, Tim said he will talk to the mechanic today and see when he can take the car back into be looked at, he doesn't want me to drive it and this is so frustrating.

Not having a car means I feel like I am letting my girls down as I am unable to drive Leo to or from school but this isn't anything I can change it is just the way it is right now, but still I have been made to feel like I am letting them down, I am sure they do not mean to make me feel like this but I do and it is easy to say not to feel like this but not so easy to do. Changing the way one feels isn't something that is easy to do.

Our feelings come from some place inside us and really we don't really have a lot of control over our feelings, well I don't think we do. It is easy to say don't feel bad but often we do feel bad if it was easy to change the way we feel then we would, wouldn't we.

Do you feel that you can control your feelings?

Do your feelings seem to take over your body at times?

I know when I am feeling sad or like I have let someone down my body reacts and I end up with headaches and feeling tired which is how I am feeling today, tired very tired and sad inside because I am unable to do what I would like to do for my family.

I know that my online friends are going to tell me not to feel bad and that I am unable to change anything it is not my fault the car is not running and that can run around after my girls and grandsons but as I have already said for me it is not that easy. 

Sunday at my place

Well it is now Sunday afternoon and I am feeling much better today, I woke up at around 2.30am and felt fine which is good because I cooked a baked lunch and what is better is that our air conditioner is in the kitchen because today we have temps in the high 30's. All the girls came to lunch with Leo and Summer, Sydney-May and Blain are at their fathers.

Tim and the next door neighbour Kevin have been working on Tasha's car for the last few afternoons and all day today, in fact Kevin has been a big help to Tim and no one asked him to help he offered. After we get the car repaired Natasha is going to try and sell it privately and she has he on/off boyfriends car in her back yard and she told him to either come and get the car or she is getting rid of it he said she could get rid of it so she is going to try and sell it for a few hundred dollars and then she is going to see about buying herself another car. She said she would like something smaller and cheaper to run.

Speaking of cars our car is still not running right, in fact Tim drove it to work yesterday and came home and told me he doesn't think I should be driving it till he gets it repaired so I am expecting him to drive it to work tomorrow and have someone look at it. It still sounds like it is missing and will just stall at any tick of the clock.

So I will have to rely on Natasha to take Leo to and from school again next week this is really bloody annoying but it can't be helped we need to get the car fixed and Tim is worried if we drive the car we may do more damage to it and he doesn't want that to happen.

Oh yeah this Wednesday coming I won't be going to see my nan as the nursing home is in lock down and mum has an appointment at the hospital for physio on her neck. Ok that is all from me for this lovely Sunday afternoon I will now post and retire to my arm chair to watch some telly for the rest of the afternoon.

Hey Hey its Saturday

Hey hey it's Saturday, and what a lazy Saturday I am having, I have done nothing much all day after sleeping in till 8.30am I got up checked emails, read some blogs and watched some telly so as I said nothing much happening.

How about everyone else, what have you all been up to?

It's another hot day here in Newcastle, I have recently turned the air conditioner on and you know what else my nose is going from blocked to running and it is driving me crazy, I have taken a couple of cold tablets which I hope will help soon.

Tim is at work so I am home alone, Jessica had asked me to go with her to drop Leo off, he has gone to a birthday party today for a school friend but when she didn't turn up I rang her and she changed her mind and had Tasha go with her instead.

Speaking of Jessica and Tasha they are spending a lot of time together this year, as Tasha is helping with Leo, spending time helping him do his homework and have to say there has been a big change in Leo he has come alone so much since she started working with him. However, Leo and Blain are spending too much time together some weeks and Blain really needs the weekend to have a break from Leo. When they are together they can be great but after a while they start to fight like brothers and that drives Tasha crazy.

I think I might have to have a nap this afternoon as all the tablets I have taken this morning are making me so tired and I need to take something for the headache I know have. 

Five things Friday............words

Hey guess what it's Friday yet again, and I am with it this week so you get five things Friday. This week I am going with the theme of five words/sayings that can make a difference.

Sorry

Excuse me

Thank you

I appreciate it

You're forgiven

Thursday's News

Good morning all on this lovely warm Thursday morning, guess what I overslept this morning, first time I have overslept in ages. I woke up to the phone ringing, it was Blain wanting to know where nanna was, I quickly got dressed and left to get Leo to take him to school.

While he was sitting in assembly he didn't look good and I called him over to see what was wrong, he said he thought he was going to vomit and had a headache, the teacher came to see what was wrong and she told Leo that if he continued to feel sick the school would ring nanna to go and get him but the time being he could go and help another teacher with some stuff. So far haven't heard from the school so here's hoping he is ok.

My car is running but still doesn't sound great, but at least I have a car I can drive if it continues to sound like it is missing I will speak to Tim and see what he says.

You know what as I sit and write this I have a headache as well, so I am taking something for it. Ok I just walked into the laundry and I could smell bleach............what the hell............I think I might have used the bleach and water spray instead of the pre wash spray on Tim's shirts I can't do anything till the machine is finished, bloody hell I am hoping it will be ok and I haven't ruined his shirts. I usually have the bleach and water spray in the bathroom not the laundry which is why I think I made the mistake.

I picked up the parts for Natasha's car yesterday morning, mum drove me to get them on the way to the nursing home to see nanna. So now Tim and some guy from work have to find the time over the next few days to work on it and get it going.

Motivation Thursday will be back next week I just felt like telling you about my morning today.

Wordless Wednesday

Monday's Report

Hello Monday, what happened to Sunday, seems I forgot to write a post on Sunday, I did read about 40 blog posts but then sat down to watch telly and didn't get back to write a post, sorry for that, but I am here on this lovely Monday morning.

As most of the world will know there was a couple of cyclones here down under Marcia and Lam, neither of them were anyway near me, thankfully and none of my family were affected. The army has moved in to help with the clean up in Yeppoon and Rockhampton many homes are still without power although crews are working around the clock trying to get power back to homes and businesses. In Rockhampton generators were set up at traffic lights to keep them working and you know what happened some asshole went and stole them.

On the news here today is a lot of news about the Oscars, you know I don't watch award shows, never have enough time to waste doing so, for many years I use to watch the Logies which is Australia's television award show but I don't even watch them any more I can't stay up that late any more. Do you watch award shows? If so which is your favourite?

Tasha has came and picked Leo up to take him to school, as Tim doesn't want me to drive my car, the reason well it is missing and sounds like it is going to stall all the time it is being driven. When I mentioned it to Tim on Thursday he kind of just shrugged it off and thought I was over reacting but of course when he drove the car yesterday he changed his mind. He said he will get spark plugs and change them as he things that may be the many cause, last night he was out trying to get the spark plugs out but was unable to find the right spanner. I don't know what happened as I went to bed and left him to it, he was complaining that someone took his tools but I don't think that happened I think he has just misplaced them because his sheds are a total mess.

So I will have to get Tasha to also get Leo this afternoon, she will have to get one of the boys out early in order to get them both picked up this afternoon. I said I thought she should get Blain first as Blain last week asked a few times if he could see Leo's school. Yeah since she drove Jessica's car she has realised it isn't the big scary car she thought it was.

Last night when Leo had his bath he flooded the floor so much that the carpet in the hallway was wet with a nice puddle of water there, I was annoyed and a little bit angry, Leo said he was sorry and didn't mean to make such a mess. I ended up using 5 or 6 towels to mop up the water so of course this morning I am washing towels. My washing machine isn't dissolving the detergent and even the fabric softener and I was towels in fabric softener and when I went to get the towels out of the machine there was still undissolved stuff so I have had to run them through another wash this I find frustrating but little I can do about it. I can't afford to get another washing machine so I am just dealing like one does.