The Runs and Tim

I have been sick since Saturday night it came on while I was watching The Bill, I suddenly had to run to the toilet and yesterday I felt sicker then I have in a long time, thankfully I was able to spend all day yesterday in bed and no one disturbed me,

I am feeling a bit better today at least I am no longer running to the toilet all the time. Although I am feeling worn out and I will be going back to bed shortly.

Tim has been away working this weekend and returned home at around 3am this morning at 5am I was woken up by Leo crying and Tim and Jessica fighting. This fighting just got worse as time went on Jessica was yelling and swearing but I could tell that she was doing it mostly to piss off her father. Yes he had been drinking he told me he had 2 large glasses of wine which is equal to 4 glasses anyway I asked him to just let it go but he wouldn’t and in the end Jessica to Leo and said she was going for a drive. After she left I asked him was he happy now that he drove his daughter and grandson out of the house yet again he told me to shut my F#*ing mouth at which point I walked into my room got dressed and told him I was going for a walk he made some smart ass remark then said he was going to sleep in his van.

So he is now sleeping in his van and Jessica is home asleep in her bed and Leo is back in his cot. I think I will now go back to bed myself.

My Dad

Sunday night my mother had to take dad over to the hospital well it was really Monday morning as it was at 4am, He had bad stomach pains and really felt sick anyway they couldn’t find anything wrong with him but thought he might have a spilt at the top of the stomach so they sent him for a chest X Ray.

Well the X Ray showed a shadow on his lung the size of a saucer and it wasn’t there 5 years ago when he had his last chest X Ray, He has had a number of tests and we are still waiting on the results of some of them he has to have a PET SCAN but of course the machine to do the scan at the John Hunter is broken and he will have to go somewhere else to have it done so he has to wait till the 16th to have it done.

Found out this morning that dad does have lung cancer when mum told me this I had a good cry, he will have to have chemo but at this stage we still don’t how much of his lung with have to be removed.

Feeling Distraught

Well everyone has heard the saying “with friends like that who needs enemies…………”

I will now give you an example of that saying my oldest daughter Kathy-Lee discovered last night that she was missing $1600 from her money box. There was no sign of a break in and the only other person who has been there is a so called friend of Kathy’s.

You can imagine how distraught she was when she realised she rang me in tears I handed the phone to Tim who spoke to her for a bit then when he hung up he rang the police they said a office would be out there straight away so he got Jessica to drive him to Kathy’s. The police arrived a few minutes after he did and took a statement had a look around agreed there was no sign of a break in and then took her friends name and phone number and said he would be speaking to her today.

This morning the finger print guy turned up and looked at the money box but said that he could only find a few smudged prints.

I will let everyone know what happens if anything.

Looking For Work

Well my darling hubby is at work again tonight doing another concert I think and he is working on Monday night also doing rail. He has been busy all week looking for work handing in resumes and even went for an interview on Friday.

So this first week of having him home has been ok he hasn't managed to drive me crazy yet.

He said he may get a bit more work for a company in Sydney and asked me if I would be ok with that and I said yes of course I would be as long as he is happy and when he is working he is happy.

A Good Night

Tomorrow I have to go and see my counsellor again so I hope the Dr has faxed over the referral. I have been thinking about getting Tim to come to a visit with me but I am just not sure part of me would like him to another part doesn't...........I guess I will go with the when in doubt don't rule...........lol

Last night I had Leo for the night Jessica went out for the night and he was really good although I only had 3 hours sleep before he woke up and stayed up for 2 hours but unlike his mother I didn't get upset with him at all.

This morning she sent me a text asking if I would take him to Sunday lunch and I said NO but she text back pleaseeeeeeeee and again I said NO but then she said she didn't know when she would be home so I ended up taking him. However when Lucas wanted their car I asked if Jes was home and she was so I told him she could drive him over to get the car and take Leo home with her......she wasn't happy about it but I didn't care.

Lunch was good only me and Sandra their with mum and dad although Sue turned up just for a visit and after lunch Sandra drove me home.

Today has Sucked

What a day it has been found out today my niece got a job also found out today that my darling husband has lost his job, this was not unexpected but still upset me. Tim is not upset as he feels he will get another job sooner then later.

He said he will start looking on Monday as he can't do anything this weekend as he has to work.......lol He is working in Sydney driving buses for the weekend and in fact he is working every weekend for the next 6 weeks. Tim is not the type to do nothing and I know he will be looking really hard for another job.

Holding Back Tears

Why do some men find it hard to cry in front of others even those they are closest to……………….

A few days ago Lucas had a phone call from his mother telling him that his grandmother was very ill and not expected to live out the week. Since she lives in Dubbo it wasn’t going to be easy for Lucas to get out there to see her but it was something he really wanted to do as he was very close to her.

Yesterday his mother rang and told him she was on her way to Dubbo to be with her as she really wanted to be there when she died, however she rang again this morning at 6am to let Lucas know that his grandmother had passed away.

Tasha told me she could see him fighting back the tears and wouldn’t look at her but she could hear in his voice how torn up he was. After getting a few more hours of restless sleep he decided he was going to drive himself to Dubbo which he did. This was not something he wanted to do as he doesn’t have a licence but he hadn’t been able to find any other way to get there.

Her funeral will be on Saturday which is also Tasha’s birthday so Lucas is also upset that he will not be here for her birthday but of cause she understands.