Yesterday I was tired, the day before Jessica was in pain

Good morning world, I guess some of you would had noticed I wasn't around blogland yesterday. Well this was because yesterday I was so very tired it felt like I was on autopilot all day, just going through the motions. I tried to write a post but just ended up looking at a blank page so gave up. I tried to read posts but again found myself just staring at the screen not reading so gave up. I ended up going back to bed for a bit and when I got up again I felt about the same so that really worked............not......

Then last night after I had spoken to mum on the phone I started getting the stabbing pains in the head (cluster headaches) again so I took some strong pain meds and went back to bed.

This morning I seem ok no headache not really tired or anything so let's see how the day goes.

Now let me tell you about Tuesday afternoon/night around 4.20pm I get this phone call from Leo he is distressed as his mum is laying on the floor crying in pain from her back. I tried to talk to Jessica but that didn't go well as she was screaming and crying and I couldn't really understand her, I asked if she wanted me to come down she snapped NO so I didn't.

Leo rings me back about 10 minutes later saying “come and do something nanna she is hurting my ears”. The next thing I know Jessica is ringing me saying she has called an ambulance as the pain is so bad.

So I get in the car and go to her place, the ambos are there and Leo is upset and excited at the same time, anyway they took her to Belmont hospital and Leo of course wanted to go in the ambulance with her. I had to tell him I would take him to the hospital to see her after we came home and got papa. I really didn't want to take him as I knew he would just get bored and play up.

So we come home and he is ok for a couple of hours then he decided he was going to see mum and tried to run off to find her so we had to take him to the hospital to see her.

Well we get to the hospital she is not in emergency but down in GP access and she is in a lot of pain again, the pain stuff they gave her had worn off. She had been sitting there 20 minutes and was shaking with pain and cold after about 10 minutes the called her in and of course Leo wanted to go in with her so I took him in and then of course after he saw what was happening which was not much he wanted to leave and go back to papa.

So the doctor eventually sees her and does nothing, gives he nothing for the pain and send her home, what a bloody waste of time. She cried all the way back to mine, and when we get home Tim decides to rub some Voltaren into her back and that did the trick.

I dropped Tim,Leo and Jessica off at home and went to Macca's to get food as I hadn't eaten and by the time I got back took me about 10 minutes Jessica is sitting on the lounge talking to Tim not in pain.

So yesterday I went and bought her creams and a spray to have at home so next time she gets the pain she can get Leo to rub some cream into her back or spray the stuff on her back the spray is an ice spray that my niece swears by for her back pain.

Oh yeah because they spent Tuesday night here I had to drive them home at 7am yesterday and take Leo to OOSH. Of course for some reason when I dropped him at OOSH he got into a mood and wanted to leave with me but the woman in charge who's name I cannot remember right now came outside and took hold of him and I just left.

Went to see nan yesterday, she was about the same both mum and I agree that even though we would be sad to see her pass away we feel that it would be for the best as she is just existing from day to day,unable to really talk, move, feed herself or have control of her bodily functions and as much as we love seeing her it also can be upsetting seeing her if that makes any sense. I think I might tell her next week if she wants to go and be with pop that is ok with us, just so she knows.

Well I have rambled on about my life for long enough so I will now post this for all to read. When you blog your life really is an open book.