Feeling a bit better and Father's Day is coming

Hello blogland, here I am at last doing a post this week still not 100% but getting there, managed to drag my body out of bed at 4.30am and do 61 minutes of exercise before Leo wanted my attention in the kitchen so I packed it in.

Yesterday I managed to write 6 letters to penpals and have a 7^th half written which I hope to finish today.

It's the Father's Day stall at Leo's school today so found $10 for him to take to get something for whoever he wants to buy for, usually he buys for his mum or papa or Jono who he calls “dad” but he knows Jono isn't his dad he is Blain's dad but in many way is a father figure to Leo.

Father's Day Tim and I are going over to my parents place for lunch, be it an early lunch this year as my brother and his family are going to the footy so he wants an early lunch. We are having fish and chips because it is cheaper then KFC which cost us $100 on Mother's Day, fish & chips should cost us around $40-50, yeah even fish & chips costs a pretty penny when there are a lot of people.

Asked Tim last night for $60 to get his Father's Day present from me, he wanted to know what I was getting that cost so much, wouldn't tell him all I would say is I saw something I thought he would like and wanted money to get it.

A few years back Tim was complaining one Father's Day that I hadn't got him much and my mum said to him well how much did you give her to get you a present his answer nothing, so mum said if you don't give her money how is she suppose to get you something unless you give her money to buy something. At times he forgets that I have no money of my own, all I have is what he gives me.

Sick

Jo-Anne is sick she should be back to blogging tomorrow or Thursday

Random Stuff No 2

Here is this weeks random stuff................................

That moment when you realise hubby and Leo have left and you're home alone.........................

How hard is it to say goodbye..............................

Damn it's cold..............................

Hanging photos at mum's and nearly falling off the step ladder.........................

Hot, cold, hot, cold damn this weather drives me nuts..............................

Even a crown prince needs ID to get into a club in Queensland......................

I type before I think, then I post and upset people, so I am normal...................

Feeling like a failure...........................

Some people miss the point.....................

Wanting a hot bath and a nap but not having the time to have either at the moment........................

This is me

I was told last night that I have let myself go because of how big I am. If it was easy to stop eating and if I could walk I would do so but these things are easier said then done, just because you don't see me trying doesn't mean I am not doing the best I am able to do, feeling bad about how I look doesn't help when it comes to weight loss because when one is depressed and feel that nothing they do works one feels why am I bothering but still I try and still I get up and spend 60-70 minutes each morning exercising does anyone thing I want to be a short fat woman who struggles to do things.

Do you think I like all the muscle strain and pain and not being able to move my legs and arms without pain. I may be big but I am trying to like who I am and learn to deal with it while still trying to lose weight and be slimmer. I try to dress nicely................Being told you have let yourself go doesn't help and people cannot tell me what to do that will help, because what I am doing isn't working so I have no bloody idea what else to do.

This is me, this is who I am at this stage in my life, I am still the same person just in a bigger package, telling me I look fat doesn't help, try telling me I look nice and help me feel loved and needed and not like a failure. Because I often feel like I am a failure, in case you didn't know..................

Did you know Monday

Here we are at another did you know Monday, it is a cold Monday too and a tad wet outside I have been up since 4.30am done over an hour of exercise, have taken Leo to school and read like 40 blog posts and now I am going to share these facts with you...................

In M & M chocolates the letters stand for Mars and Murri, the developers of the sweets in 1941.......

The Atlantic Ocean is saltier than the Pacific Ocean......................

At one time in Japan fashionable women painted their teeth black............................

Three our of four women wear the wrong size bra..................................

A butterfly had 12,000 eyes...................................

Someone opens a can of Spam every four seconds................................

Random thoughts No1

Here are this weeks first random thoughts and things, I will be doing this type of post most weeks.

Ever had a moment when you are trying to cut a sandwich in half and are finding it difficult and then you realise you have the knife upside down and felt like a dill......................

Some days I eat too much.......................

Mostly I am happy.......................

Taking your shirt and singlet off in pubic because you're stating to feel warm and no longer want the singlet on..............

Seems even 28% of Muslims find women in a full burqa makes them feel uncomfortable.................

Seems that the 2017 flu is the worst on record here in Australia....................................

I write a lot of letters...............................

This is the warmest August we have had in years.....................................

But still there are some bloody cold days and nights...................................

I like banana and choc chip bread, thinly sliced and toasted under the grill............................

Looking in a mirror

How many times a day do you look at yourself in the mirror?

I know some people spend a lot of time looking at themselves in a mirror but I am not one of them, the only times I find myself looking at myself in a mirror is when I am brushing my hair or putting make up.

Now when I wash my hands after I go to the toilet there is a mirror above the sink but I rarely take any notice of myself when I chance at it while washing my hands.

Being a large woman I find many mirrors make me look bigger then I feel not saying they make me look bigger then I am just bigger then I feel.

Yes I check how I look in a mirror before going out that I think is just natural but I don't feel the need to check how I look many times a day

Old Cards and Letters

Do you save old greeting cards and letters?

When I was younger I kept some cards and letters but not any more as a rule, although if I received a really nice card I may keep it.

When I see in movies and tv shows people finding a small pile of letters that have been kept I generally think who keeps letters, although I do get keeping some letters.

However, it is not something I generally do. I write and receive a lot of letters each year so if I was to keep all I received I would have boxes and boxes of letters.

Did you know Monday

So here we are at Monday, I have been out this morning doing some things for mum and going to the chemist to pick up medications that I need for the week.

I had a baked lunch here yesterday with Kathy, Jessica and Summer and Leo and of course Tim who was off.

Anyway since it is Monday it is did you know day

Californian Frank Epperson invented the ice lolly or lollypop in 1905, when he was 11 years old. He left a glass of soda or pop and a stirrer outside overnight and in the morning discovered them frozen together.

A pound of crisps cost about 200 time more than a pound of potatoes 

Just another Friday

Well here we are at 5pm on Friday afternoon after a lovely winters day with temps in the high 20's although in some parts of the state it is snowing and have some of the best snow falls in years but not here. I have been wearing shorts today, the next couple of days are suppose to be warm as well but we will see.

This morning I gave the wheelchair a miss when I went to Woolworths to get a few things, I managed to walk without much trouble but when we finished there I was starting to limp so before I went to the chemist and Big W I got the wheelchair and Jessica pushed me around.

Tonight my ankle is sore but not overly sore so ok, my back is aching as well as my head and I feel like going to sleep but such is life.

MRI Results

Hello everyone, didn't do a post yesterday as I was feeling terrible with pains in the tummy and a touch of the runs and just not myself. After I spoke to mum last night I went to bed and this morning I woke feeling like myself so all good.

Went to the doctors this morning and the MRI showed no signs of MS which will put Kathy's worry to rest. However, there is signs of borderline ventriculomegaly, yeah something I have never heard of. Dr Google tells me this about it:

Ventriculomegaly is a brain condition that occurs when the lateral ventricles become dilated. In fetuses, the most common definition uses a width of the atrium of the lateral ventricle of greater than 10mm. When the measurement is greater than 15mm, the ventriculomegaly may be classified as more severe. Enlargement of the ventricles may occur for a number of reasons, such as loss of brain volume (perhaps due to infection or infarction), or impaired outflow or absorption of cerebrospinal fluid from the ventricles. Often, however, there is no identifiable cause. The interventricular foramen may be congenitally malformed, or may have become obstructed by infection,haemorrhage , or rarely tumour, which may impair the drainage of cerebrospinal fluid, and thus accumulation in the ventricles.

Does that help, no, didn't help me either.................

Anyway I have to back and see the neurologist, referral has been sent off now I just have to wait for an appointment. I got the impression it isn't anything to worry about at this stage but it may explain why I get so many headaches.

Sleep

How do you sleep at night?

What if you can't sleep, what do you do?

Do you ever find your brain doesn't want to shut down and you just keep thinking about things?

I have had nights when I end up thinking, just stop thinking and go to sleep but usually it doesn't work and I continue to think about things, often strange things, like the wives of Henry VIII, I have no idea why I would suddenly try remember his wives names and what order they came in but I do and in case you are interested I can name them.

Thankfully those nights happen less often now days, when I put my C Pap mask on and turn the machine on it helps me go to sleep with little trouble. I generally sleep straight through the night till my alarm goes off at 4.30am although I do not set my alarm on the weekend any more.

I saw on Sunrise this morning that a new report shows that our obsession with technology is affecting our sleep and lack of sleep is costing the country something like $66 billion a year, what the hell....................

The report found that inadequate sleep is highly prevalent in Australia with an estimated 39.8% of Australian adults experiencing some form of inadequate sleep.

That’s equivalent to four in 10 Australian adults — or 7.4 million people.

The comprehensive report revealed that sleep deprivation was linked to 3,017 deaths in 2016-17, with 394 of those occurring because a person has fallen asleep at the wheel of a vehicle or from industrial accidents due to lack of sleep.

The remaining deaths are heart disease and diabetes deaths linked to sleep disorders

So I hope everyone is getting plenty of good quality sleep................

My Monday

Hello here we are at the end of another Monday and the start of another week, it has been a busy day for me. I was up at 4.30am did my workout with the “Healing Yoga” program followed by 1hr and 10 mins with the Wii Fit.

Then Leo arrived and I took him to school before going to have blood taken, then I came home met Kathy & Summer and we all went to my Dr's appointment then I came home for a bit before going to get Leo from school to take him to see his paediatrician.

Now he didn't want to go and see her, told me so this morning when I mentioned to him that he had the appointment and when I go to get him out of class he said he didn't want to go but I was able to get him to agree without much drama.

He has had his medication upped a bit and will have to go back in a few months again.

On the way home I asked him if he wanted Maccas for tea as a reward for his good behaviour even though he didn't want to go to the doctors, of course they stuffed up the order and I didn't realise till after we got home. Leo was good saying to me that I didn't have to go back he could live without fries, so I rang them and they said they will send me out a voucher, if I don't get it by Friday I will be going back and complaining in person.

Now I am going to go get changed into my jammies

Oh yeah dad went home this afternoon from the hospital, Dave went and picked him up.

Dad's Health

Well here I am at the end (kinda) of another day, I will soon be going into have a bath and get ready for bed, jammies are comfy, just saying...........

On Tuesday a ambo had to be rung for dad, he is now in hospital for a few days, he was coughing and throwing up a lot and I mean a lot and had a lot of trouble breathing, Sandy went over to the hospital to be with him on Tuesday as there was no way mum could have gone.

Now Tuesday afternoon/evening mum rang the hospital to see how he was as Sandra had to leave to get Temika from school and ya know she has two daughters to take care of. Anyway mum was told a doctor was with him and to ring back in half an hour, so she did and was told a different doctor was with him to ring back in half an hour, so she did and was told someone was with him and to ring back by this time mum was getting upset and asked if the nurse could tell her how he was, she said no sorry can't do that. In the end my brother David went over to the hospital to see how he was and report back to mum.

He wasn't good, he had managed to pull the cannula out of his hand and blood had gone everywhere, it was all over his bed, the floor and himself and he really wasn't well at all.

The doctors said he has the flu but because he has chronic obstructive pulmonary disease (COPD) it has effected him worse then the average person, he is hooked up to oxygen 24/7 at the moment and is having antibiotics via the drip. Dad is on antibiotics all the time because of his health problems.

Also all his hand and low part of his arm is black and blue and looks terrible due to the problems getting the cannula into his hand and then him pulling/knocking it out.

While visiting him yesterday mum was upset by a nurse saying they had asked dad what to do if he needs resuscitation, as in should they take steps to resuscitate him or let him die, mum doesn't want to think about such things. Dad said it would depend on if they think he can be resuscitated and go on to live a normal life, or if they think he would just end up in a nursing home drooling and wetting himself, as he doesn't want to live like that, which I get, I wouldn't want to either, who would.

Hospital is the best place for him.

Photo Wednesday

Newsletter post

No post today did this instead.......................

http://jamfn.blogspot.com.au/2017/08/july-2017.html