I think I am fat ok I know I am fat and it took me a long time to get used to being fat, my grandson Blain often calls me his “fat nanna” and Little Leo will tell me I am “round” as his mum told him it is not nice to call people “fat”. Now this bothers my daughters when they hear their sons saying such things but I think they are just being honest and telling it how it is.
I am happy with me I know I am a good person and have a good heart and I try not to be spiteful and nasty but I am also larger then I have ever been but that means there is more of me to love. Children often tell it how it is so I do not understand why some people get so upset with children, if a child says something that can be seen as mean or nasty then the parent to talk to the child and try to make them understand that it is not nice to say such things. As my daughter does with Little Leo she tries to get him to understand that some people may be hurt by being called “fat”
I also have a problem with thinking negative things about myself like I am a failure as a mother, this I think is brought on by being put down by one of my daughters, I know she doesn’t mean it but she does have a habit of saying things that make me feel like I have failed or let her down in some way.
When she is pissed off with me she has a habit of calling me “mother” with such a tone that applies that I have done something wrong. It is easy to think negative thoughts they seem to come so much easier than the good thoughts, why is that?