Thank you thank you everyone for all the well wishes yes I am on the road to recovery the diarrhoea has stopped at last and I am now able to get out of bed and do a few things the thing is that I have been over doing it and then feeling like shit and end up in bed for ages.
I am even well enough to talk about the most embarrassing experiences a person can suffer from and that is bowel incontinence yes you read that right bowel incontinence, it is a condition that many people suffer from and no one wants to talk about or admit they have it.
Well I suffer from it and have done for about 3 years and you know what it wasn't until recently that I found the courage to tell the doctor that I have it, I mentioned it while I was at the doctors last week about being so sick. She told me to go back and see her again and we will see what is causing it.
Now only last week I discovered incontinence underwear, I have used incontinence pads in the past but they don't work for bowel incontinence but these incontinence underwear they are great absolutely wonderful. On Friday while out shopping I had an accident with diarrhoea I was wondering down an aisle and suddenly thought damn I have to go to the toilet and as soon as I had that thought it started running out of me. I was so upset and embarrassed I though everyone would be able to see and I wanted to cry and just get out of there and get home so I went straight to the check out and left. I was wearing a pair of blue pants with a blue top and thought they must be completely stained.
When I got home and went to the bathroom to clean myself up there was not outer sign that anything had happened my blue pants had no stain on them at all. All I could thing was wow I should have started wearing this underwear ages ago. I will now be able to go out shopping with a new sense of confidence.
Why is it so hard for us to admit that we have this problem, if it was a problem you suffered from would you be able to admit it, for so long the only person who knew I had a problem was my husband.