Inner Peace

Do you have inner peace?

Or is it something you are searching for?

I am lucky as I do have inner peace I have been able to forgive those who have done me wrong not because they deserve to be forgiven but because I will not hold onto negative and destructive thoughts and feelings.

I often say that life is too short to be  miserable not because life is short but because you really have no idea how long you will be around for, so I feel you should enjoy your life love yourself and surround yourself with people who love you and respect you and treat you well.

I have encountered people who say they have no idea how to achieve inner peace or they have no idea what inner peace is, I have even heard people say they can’t tell if they have inner peace and I have thought how could you not know if you have inner peace or not…………………

Ok if you do not feel tense or worried most of the time, if you can sleep soundly without worrying about things that might happen, if you can sit and enjoy the peace and quiet around you without having upsetting thoughts enter your mind then you may have inner peace…………………..lol

Inner peace doesn’t just happen for everyone some people have to work at achieving it by not stressing over things they cannot change and learning to forgive people, to be able to take a deep breath and say I for you for treating me badly then just letting the negative feelings go into the wind or air or whatever…………………..

Shopping On Saturday.................

 

First up I want to say thank you to everyone who left a comment about renewing ones vows, I am not doing individual replies because well I have been busier today then I am normally on a Saturday. I did like all the comments if we did renew our vows I wouldn’t want to spend much money one doing so………….lol

This morning I went to do some shopping and not food shopping I had a  gift voucher that I used to buy some things from “Smiggle” I love that store but I have a thing of stationery, however instead of getting stuff just for me I also bought Christmas presents because that is what I do.

After getting home from my little shopping trip my precious first born asked me if I would go with her to do her food shopping so of course I did and I am now home had a sandwich for lunch and now I am going to do a bit of web surfing, I was up early 6am and managed to do a couple of hours of blog reading before going out shopping.

While out shopping with Kathy she told me I was rude and running into people and not saying sorry but I am one of those people who usually says sorry if I cut some off with my trolley or if I run into someone but to be honest I didn’t notice myself running into people or cutting them off. So I just told Kathy that I was not in the mood to be nice and polite because I thought if I told her I didn’t think I was doing what she said she would have just gotten annoyed with me.

This afternoon Tim has gone to work so I am going to have a nice afternoon home alone, yes everyone knows I like to be home alone……….lol

Renewing Wedding Vows

Vow renewal ceremonies-yay or nay?

This is something I would love to do but it isn’t something my husband is interested in I do wonder why it would be so hard for him to do this for me. Now it’s not because my wedding sucked or anything like that but since me and hubby have had some rough patches in the last few years and we are still together. I would like to reassert our commitment to each other. 

The only thing about my wedding I didn’t like was my wedding cake while is that you ask well it’s because it was a fruit cake and I do not eat fruit cake and have never eaten fruit cake so I would love to have a chocolate wedding cake.

What does other bloggers think?

Watching Sydney-May & A Wet Bed...........

Today for a change I am watching my precious granddaughter Sydney-May while her mum is at work because she has been sick and today has a runny nose and slight cough so Kathy-Lee didn’t want to send her to day care. I would have loved to have taken her to see nan but forgot to ring mum and tell her I had Sydney and of course mum had Temika so I wasn’t able to take Sydney, I left her here with papa who rang me when I was nearly home wanting to know where I was as he had to get ready for work. I felt he could easily go and have a shower with her here but anyway I was only a couple of minutes away so he had his shower when I got home. I could tell when I got home that papa had been playing with her while I was out.

Anyway moving on we have had some lovely warm days although I think the nights are still pretty cool and even though it was warm outside it is still cool in the house and I am still wearing light weight long pants.

Last night for the first time since Leo has been wearing only undies to bed he wet the bed and of course he was in our bed I noticed he had wet and got up and got him a pull up and clean pj’s and changed him and got a towel and placed it over the wet spot in the bed. Leo didn’t wake at all while I was changing him. However, when he woke up this morning he says to me why am I laying on a towel I tell him he had an accident during the night, later while he was sitting watching Tom & Jerry he looks down and says nanna why am I wearing these pants I had red ones on when I went to bed…………lol I remind him he had an accident and he slaps his head and goes oh yeah now I remember………he looked so cute………………..

So of course I have now had to change the sheets and wash them along with all the towels from last night since Leo can’t have a bath without flooding the floor much to my annoyance ok I don’t mind so much about the bathroom floor it is when the water seeps out into the hallway that I get annoyed as it takes longer for the carpet to dry……………

I have managed to go and peg the washing on the line without worrying about Sydney but Tim couldn’t have a shower. 

I do hope I can get her to have a nap while her mum is at work she looked tired about an hour ago but refused to have a lay down, I will try again shortly to get her to have a nap.

Leo and my teeth.................

To I had to go to the dentist just for a check up and clean as the government scheme that covers my dental care ends on the 1st December so the dental practice rang and arranged an appointment and of course I have to go back in a few weeks to get 3 more fillings........ I hate going to the dentist as I have such a small mouth and it is so hard to try and open wide enough.

After that I had to go and meet Jessica out at Kaleidoscope as Leo had an appointment with Dr Murray to follow up on his behavioural problems. They are talking about possibly placing him on medication next year if he doesn't settle into school next year. They think he has ADHD and ODD I do not know how I feel about the thought of him going onto medication I have mixed emotions about it.

Anyway Dr Murry is going to arrange for Leo to attend some other classes to prepare him for school next year and have advise Jessica to go to the school when the next term starts and take the report that she had compiled and ask if the school counsellor can assess him before he starts school so that they can be aware of any problems he will have next year.

I also will have to take a copy of the report with me tomorrow when I take Leo to day care and give it to Hanna, she has been asking for it for a while now.

I Dreamt I died...................

Have you ever dreamt about dying? Well the last couple of nights I have had a number of dreams in which I have died and I have to say it is a bit unnerving dreaming about one’s own death………………

In fact I rarely dream about death at all, and this is the first time I have ever dreamt about my own death and the fact that it wasn’t just one dream but a number of dreams on two different nights. So should I be worried should I read more into it then just disturbing dreams, could my Guardian Angel be trying to tell me something. 

Now you know what made me think of this right now well it’s because I have heartburn or indigestion call it what you like it is pain in the bloody chest and I just wish the Mylanta would start to work and the pain would go away……………..

I found this poem on the internet and thought it would fit this post......................

My angel's right beside me,
wherever I may go,
keeping close watch over me,
he's my husband don't you know.
God took him away from me,
not so long ago,
but he promised he'd never leave me,
dear lord I miss him so.
But I know he's right beside me,
wherever I may go,
for he's my guardian angel,
my love, my life, my soul.
By Rebecca Webb